Hi everyone,

I just want to let all of you know that I am leaving this site.  The reason is, because the only way I can access it is to turn off my privacy and allow ALL cookies.  I really do not like that option, and do not  want to be bothered with all of the spam I will receive as a result of visiting this site.

Just to let all of you who have been so supportive and caring, I am doing a lot better and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.  There were many times I didn't think I could live through another day without him.  I would come to this site and read.  It helped to know there were others out there that were experiencing the same pain, and others that  made it through their pain. It planted the seed that maybe someday I would get though the intense grief I was in. I still grieve him and always will.

Maybe it is because of the passing of time. It will be 2 years on 8/24/2009 that my beloved husband Chuck died. The hole in my heart will never heal, it is a large as the day he died.  But, now I don't cry daily, and cry myself to sleep every night.  Many times I sobbed uncontrolably and it seemed like there was no end to my agony Then a miracle happened to me.

One day I was visiting his grave and it was like a big burden was lifted from me.  It came to me that he is really gone forever, he will never come back.  I think he helped me see that I cannot live my life the way I had been.  What was so amazing that it happened in an instant,  and from that day on, I feel like I will be able to live out my days without him until I die. 

I still to become involved in anyone else, and I will never become involved with any man other than a platonic friendship.  I will not ever marry again.  I had the "best" and in his lifetime, I knew that no one could ever compare to him.  I now that even more deeply in his death.

We had a love that was blessed by God, a love that comes once in a life time.  Some people never have that love.  Even though his death almost killed me, we were so fortunate to have loved each other unconditionally. and I would go through the pain of losing him again rather than never having him in my life.

One thing that has brought me comfort is that I have made arrangements to be buried with him  I went to the cemetery and bought a double crypt for us.  Many will think it gross, but somehow knowing I will rest with him has brought me a peace I cannot explain.

So my friends I will say goodby.  I will miss you all.  God Bless and may you all have peace in your heart some day.

Love,

Adelle

(aka, WiltedRose)