I have been having a years-long struggle with where I belong religiously and spiritually. I am on a spiritual cul-du-sac that I am, perhaps, doomed to travel forever, never belonging anywhere, but always trying.
Socially and religiously, I am very very Conservative, which is what makes me a loner since all those I can identify with in that area, are on the complete opposite end of the spectrum with my other interests (politically and environmentally) and vice-versa. It is tough, and it does make me an outsider, but my ideals are what make me who I am, so they are not going to change. Mentally, I am a nomad that wanders from one place to another, never truly fitting in with anyone. While I am 100% Conservative on social issues, and I take the Bible literally, I am also a tree-hugging hippie at heart with a free spirit, ready to fly away into a completely unconventional existance.
I am getting ready to go to university where I wish to persue wildlife biology. I love the outdoors. To me, there is no time more serene than that spent in nature. I do not believe manmade objects can ever compare in beauty or worth to that which the wonderfully artistic hand of God has created. I was born in the 1980s, but I feel as though I belong in the 1800s, a soul that was accidentally jolted into this modern world by mistake. I love the lifestyle, the clothing, the houses, the transportation, and pretty much everything else from the 1800s. An "about me" section would not be complete if I did not mention my love of writing. It is a huge passion of mine, a part of me. I am currently working on a novel entitled "Weeping Willow" (hence, my alias), and a true honour and blessing would be to have it published one day.
I may sound very opinionated, and I am. I am inwardly passionate about all of my opinions and ideas, but outwardly, that is not quite as obvious. I am a lot more outspoken online than I am in person! In the flesh, I am not only conservative and traditional, but reserved and quiet most times as well. I am beginning to get a daring side to me compared to when I was younger though. I love trying new things, and I especially love to travel and see what the rest of this beautiful world has to offer. Some things on my to-do list include paragliding and (more extreme) hiking the entire Appalachian Trail once I am finished school. I have spent so long hiding from the world, it is time to experience it fully now!
Weeping_Willow, it is strange how closely your religious confusion resembles mine. I read your post on the Traditional Christian board but haven't responded to it. I was a fervent Christian for years and was studying for the ministry. Long story short, my studying lead me to Judaism. I am torn between the two. I met a nice Orthodox Rabbi and spent two Shabbats and the Passover at his home. I loved it. I am drawn to the Law and the Festivals. I also am having a hard time believing in Jesus as a mediator/god/sacrifice. We should talk.
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