First, I APPLAUDE you for your courage to make this video! I have such fear...I'm scared to even post my real pic on this site, despite being a member. I suffer from depression too and relate so much to what you have shared. Yes, what is the point really? And, yes, deep down insidde, I love my life, I have so much to be thankful for!! But, my thought process is all messed up; and things just break down for me, and everything and nothing can make or break me. Like you, I have lost friends from my depression; my mood, or having falling outs and not being able to go back to the person. You talk about not feeling like going to get your brother. I understand!! But, I'm a parent...so, I feel that much worse. Scared my kids will be depressed. Scared that I am not sufficient enough to raise them properly. Feeling like because of my depression and mood swings that I could give them more..more of me. I love how you end your video with words of encouragement. One thing I learned in therapy, was to keep yourself your credit. And, I hope that you continue to do for yourself--Give yourself credit. It is not easy at all for a 17 y/o to be on their own! And, you are right regarding how far you have come. Sometimes remembering that you are strong and have endured trials already is so hard to do when you are caught up in your sadness. I try to keep telling myself that life is hard...there is nothing easy about it. But, it doesn't always make it easier. I will try to smile everyday to just have that "moment of glee". Thank you so much for sharing!!!!! And, please, please stay encouraged towards the positive.