i am at this very spot in my own life at this time and i pray (and ask you all to pray for me) that God can push me in a positive direction as i feel myself falling deeper and deeper into a funk that i can not get out of

This is very good. It does show when we are closer to Jesus is like we are dancing with our Best Friend. As soon as we take our eyes off of Jesus that is when the devil will bring his stuff into our lives. The things of this world can let us get farther away from Jesus. Just like in this video the girl is confused because she does not know either to follow the things of this world or to follow Jesus. At the end Jesus saves her and she is free from bondage. Once again she is having that relationship with Jesus.