thank you for being my friend ,many blessings your new friend manuela.
Woo Hoo! Be well and be happy..its you inner nature!
Dearest Victoria, how I know where you are. I too was a struggling artist with an addiction. From the moment I picked up at the age of 14 I was off and running, I have always had art in my life. Somehow I managed to graduate college, addiction and all, but knew in my heart that I would never survive in the real world while using. Alcohol caused me the most problems, but marijuana was my true addiction. I put them both down on 7/6/1979 at the age of 22, and went straight to AA. I had some family support. Addiction runs deep and hard in my family and several members had already gotten sober before me. My art and AA kept me going. I was very young to be in AA in 1979, I found young people's group's, started one with friends, found sober dances, dated sober men. Kept away from friends who drank and used. My best friends understood, and they are still my friends today. My art still sustains me. I took many art classes. You can do it. My spiritually began in AA, I had lost faith while using. My belief has grown since then unbelievably. Hang in. Join support groups here, and I really suggest AA. There are many more young people now. I love your drawings, please stop by and see my work, and welcome to the painting group. Pat
Dear Victoria Reborn . . . . .
May God give you .. for every storm - a rainbow .. for every tear - a smile .. for every care - a promise .. and a blessing in each trial .. for every problem life sends - a faithful friend to share ..
for every sigh - a sweet song - and an answer for each prayer =:0]
I too have struggled for the past 20 years with drugs and alcohol. It took so long for me, because I thought I was having so much fun, but the fun was over years ago. I had to come to the reality that I was just sick and tired of being sick and tired. I wasn't waiting to get arrested. I was gonna make sure I didn't get in anymore trouble. That's not the only thing bad about Addiction. I could write a book on all the bad things??? But, you actually have to be done, you cannot be forced to be done using, if you are then you probably will resent the fact that you were forced to stop, before your ready. Only you and only you know when your done and ready to live a clean and sober life. I am done, I know I am done, I asked for help this time, it wasn't Court Ordered! I am truly and ready to stop using for me and my kids, even though they are all grown, I still don't want to use anymore, for my own life choice. So, when you are truly ready, you will know it??? Later from Debra Rincon Lopez.
saw your profile on the home page and wanted to say hello from another aa. i'm new to this site myself and have been trying to stay sober for several years (i've got 15 months so far this time). anyhoo, feel free to ask me anything---if i don't know, i can usually find someone who does. take care
I am an Alcoholic. I've learned to accept that I enjoy Alcohol. Especially sweeter wines and I drink to feel it through the body. That craving comes and goes at times. I do notice that I dislike the pain and nausea associated with hangovers so I have stopped bingeing. There is a lot more to life than just alcohol. There is a lot to fully experience through a sober body. I can name a hundred things better than alcohol to try out and it improves your artistic abilities. Learning new dances, traveling to various outdoor retreats, weaving, pottery, watercolors, oil painting, visiting decor shops, visiting hobby shops, singing, yoga, watching comedies, trying exotic foods... don't judge because there are foods we like and dislike. So many things to form your personal preferences and enjoy life as best you can. We were all meant to do something special with our lives. There is something that only you can do that no one else can do. If you find this then you are better than most of us other Alcoholics.
Your drawing is beautiful, looking forward to seeing more.
Let me know if I can assist in any way.
The world may seem uncertain, but God knows the end from the beginning and everything in between.
Victoria hang in there!! I know it is difficult but it is do-able. Believe in yourself and your dreams and know that you will never achieve them if you are using. Love yourself and care for yourself and learn spiritually. Time takes time, but it does get better and better.