I was reading peoples stories and wanted to let the ones that have been on this long bumpy road for several years know that my road has been the same. I have had loss and more walls that I have run into than I care to remember. I have concentrated on taking good care of my health because it is one of the only things I seem to have control over, so in the past 3 years I put on a lot of weight, I have lost more jobs than I can count, I have not had any relationships, and after relocating to New York I have had one crazy living arrangement after another. I am now in my 9th or 10th place in 2 years and looking to move. I have not worked in 8 months and have one friend here who is half my age. YES, the road has been hell! I have wanted to end it all because I have no family, no friends here and have been so lonely spending each day and nite alone. In Central Park with all the happy people, I stand ALONE! It is the very worst feeling. I am the bull, I am strong but my heart is tender and has been seeking love for a life time. My birthday is Thursday 8th and after all the hurt a rope is tossed to me "I was just NOW offered a job, yes ! just 5min ago." Maybe, all you others that have joined me in this past 10 year Mountain climb, maybe we are reaching the top and will be able to see the beauty of the rest of the world, rather than the wall we have been facing for so very long. I do hope so, I have struggled with my faith every day but then I get up I go on line and look for the career and the friends and put one foot in front of the other and go to the gym and find people who smile at me and it calms me, for awhile. Let me know if any of you have had any breaks on this day of the New Moon in our sign?