i used to ask god why me what did i do to deserve sexual abuse by family members? bad health drug addiction, failed and abusive relationships blah blah blah. then recently i realized maybe i was the only 1 strong enough to live threw and stop the cycle of abuse passed from generation 2 generation in my bloodline. i became just as abusive as the 1 s i hated so much. ive done things i can never take back 2 but the 1 thing i am is taking responsibillity, and changing my attitude towards god life and others. at least im trying too