It all started  January 12th this 2009 year. I gave up my Dr pepper....on an mission to loose weight, heard that  drinking Dr Pepper gave you an extra 12 pounds a  year.  I started walking at night after dinner and after 3 months  noticing a big difference in my body shape. By July of 2009 I lost 40 pounds by exercising and eating better. No ones  food plan or weight lifting program.  In August I lost  my  job of  7 years....wow that hit me hard,,,,

this was  job that i  put my boss before my  kids sometimes....and she fires me for putting my  husband first,,, yep ,,,

now i gave myself a  pity party of one day. you know where you lay on the couch and ask WHAT DID DO WRONG to deserve this. I did not need to validate this with others because of how many came forward to say what in the world???  BUT it was a pity party of WHAT do I now.

I refuse to let myself  EAT at the pity party  but  eat because I was hungry.  I made myself walk more,,,,3 miles every other night.  I was not going to gain that weight back!

now lost  job and  50 pounds....uuuhhhhhhh

So I  had to search my heart.... make sure I was in balance with God... that I had no sins in the way of following  GOD,,,,positive  things  24/7 waiting on GOD to bless this family back with a  job. 

angry? hmmm yes... forgive her ?  hmm yes...have to or Iwill not get my blessing... Let God take care of it? yes....

The water bill and  electricity bill is due this week,,,,need $400 ...OK GOD  where is that  job?

check attitude...check that this is given to GOD and  check that ,,,

"Because you're not yet taking God seriously," said Jesus. "The simple truth is that if you had a mere kernel of faith, a poppy seed, say, you would tell this mountain, 'Move!' and it would move. There is nothing you wouldn't be able to tackle." Matt 18:20

If I can loose weight  with disipline... then I can depend on God with discipline... right now it feels like I am holding  my breath under water....waiting on GOD,,,*********************************************************

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope." Psalm 42...Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which tr...anscends all under...standing, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-

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  'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.' When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. Concentrate on this sentence... &#...039;The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.' Something good will happen to you today; something that you have been waiting to hear.

,,,,,,,,,,so I have given this to GOD....