Parchment is a fitting background for one so obsessed with the faiths that have been written in ancient parchment I suppose.
I still stuggle with religion. Its been almost 10 years since I was excommunicated Mormon. Homosexuals have become the "out caste." I do not believe that homosexual attraction is innately wrong. Having said that, I must find a faith that is on par.
Lately I've been thinking of the Jewish faith again. I have studied it for years, on and off, nothing super serious, but perhaps it is time again to renew my old friends, and read again of the Jewish faith. I realized something: Israel is not the Jewish faith. The Jewish faith is not Israel. The Orthodox are not the Jewish faith. I am the Jewish faith - spiritually wounded, searching, on a long path of finding God.
I will start this by celebrating Friday prayers, and saying a simple morning and evening prayer. On the 1st and 3rd Friday of every month, I will go to Temple at the closest Temple and say prayers. At each festival, I will research and choose one way in which to celebrate that festival.
I will become Jewish over time. God will make me a new man, and I will renew my covenant with God that I made at the sea in the Carribean when I was perhaps only 16. God gave me a life from the sea and only asked that I simply remember Him. God wants me to remember Him.
I pray for peace among the various paths. I pray for prosperity of my house, my parents and my extended family. I pray for justice for the oppressed. But most of all I pray for peace.