Its nearly a year. made it. a little depleted, some health issues but still here. trying to restore, also combating new anxiety related symptoms. Still here!!! Thanks again to all who prayed, i will remember your kindness in my time of need.

*Defeated, depleted, numb, transitioning...

I came to express gratitude.

However, before doing so, I looked at some of the old *entries, above. What an experience! I have brand new anxiety symptoms to show for it too ... BUT I made it! I still can't believe it sometime & it will take a little time to not feel fear occasionally, but I am lucky. I am grateful & thankful to God, and to all who prayed for me, & responded when I reached out. Thank you all - have a Blessed & Peaceful, Holiday Season.

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Hi, I was so fearful when I first came 'here'.

Broken, disillusioned & disappointed in some, it was difficult to cope with what lay ahead for me. Today, still tired & aching (I suspect from internalized stress), I feel different. More hopeful, definitely grateful. I took the advice & prayer of the very first response I got here at beliefnet. I prayed, did not give up hope (most of the time ;0), & tried to exercise patience. That person reached out through internet space & made a difference for me. Although my journey is not yet over - I can see the end (where there was none before). Grateful to God & to all who helped along the way - for those who are just beginning there own journey, keep the faith & be grateful.

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Strange thing. I have a 'lingering numbness'. The strength varies, but it is there ... persisting in the background.

It's nearly a year now that I have been trying hard re: my circumstances & for my efforts I can see some light, although I am not in the clear as yet. I tried very hard, prayed very hard & kept at it (with help from members here at beliefnet as well!!). Now, hard as I try to fight this numbness, feel gratitude, 'feel belief', it changes which I do not like. Maybe it's fatigue of some sort? I'll try again - nap, walk, pray.

ps If anyone has better ideas, I would LOVE to hear them. God be with you all. ;0)

I posted this prayer request not too long ago > That old' pendulum feeling

Please pray for me to hear news from an this week in my favour. i have no more time. I have been rejected & need the job which an if following up on.

I have no time, feel so depleted - the 'hope despair pendulum experience' is so emotionally exhausting! Please pray for me that I secure the job which an is looking after. It is urgent critical now. i really appreciate it Thanks so much. timbre

I am trying to pray myself .. i feel so 'spaced out' ... HOPE is all we have in times like this. i am holding on to mine.

To all who prayed here & elsewhere for me, I am grateful.

My prayer was anwered - the job letter arrived! There is much to do - & the habitual feeling of fear ... panic attacks return occasionally as I expect (time heals). However, I am just so grateful for this blessing at a time which was so critical. I am so grateful to God  ...I thought you should know. For those still waiting for answered prayers - pray, hope ... then wait patiently.

There really is always hope ...

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Still hoping in spite of loss ... so depleted. Numb. Negociation is possibility, so what do I have to lose? I ask for strength, clarity from Uriel. Fatigue is a tricky business - affects thinking & judgement.

I would love to be laughing a year from now with all the sadness & fear behind me.timbre

ps: hr is taking 'forever' with job letter while we wear away& perish bit by bit ...

The vise is on, I have heart palpitations ...

& now I begin with the serenity prayer - the courage to deal with the next phase that is before me.

I added the prayer circle, yesterday & included it in my coping support,prayer requests(today may 28th) - please pray for us

I must have experienced a little miracle.

When i came here, i was burdened, sad ..

I am still fearful because my route has not changed - i am on a collision course unless things change, unless my prayers are answered. But, I genuinely feel that for all who glimpsed my words, said a prayer, sent good vibes my way - thank you! 

Your 'energy'  came through when i glimpsed that 'glimmer of a chance' and I am grateful .. & very grateful to beliefnt for a 'place' like this where we can all gather. We can feel a little less alone in time of crisis. My prayers continue for those.

Have a nice day all - God be with you.