Thanks for the friends request. I read your post/blog/journal entry about your personal journey and if I may, add some insight.
It's always easiest to look outside ourselves for answers to questions that are inside. Looking for guidance thru organized religions or reading books is an easy start and where it all began for me (The Power of Now, Eckhart Tolle). Thru it all, it led to me to search inside for what is really important to me. To take all the inputs from religions, friends, this site, etc, use what makes sense, discard what doesn't and make my own answers.
At the end of the day, I have found that my own answers and thoughts and directions are aligned with the outside influences. It took a couple of years to get here however I got here and hope I can offer the insight to others. Although it's important for me to find my answers thru my own path, I hope you find your answers on your path. It's the journey that is important, not the destination.