Each day is a blessing.  A new beginning if we continue to affirm God's love for us and know Fear is not a permanent part of our lives.  Yes putting things in order is a process that requires us to actually take a look around us and then at ourselves both can be intimidating.  Something as simple as cleaning a corner of a room is an accomplishment and turning a loose old hurts is a major achievement in moving forward and putting things in order.  Fear is many times the culprit in not being able to move forward or putting things in order.  I chose not to use fear to  keep me trapped in letting go of some things I wanted to hold on to.  Some things were material and then some were memories. I love helping others and finally after a lot of praying and self examination I decided it was time I did the same for myself.  I found a wonderful peace and a tremendous joy in the small but significant steps I took.  The phone rang, I did not jump, I answered it bill collectors or no I talked to who ever it was and simply handled it.  I do this routinely for others and get them to move forward but it hit me hard when a friend asked do you do the same for yourself. No i did very little any more for myself. Helping others is out of genuine care for others but I had to look deep and found it was also a nice way not to deal with myself.  Areas I thought I had long gotten past I had not and now I am using the broom to clear away the cobwebs of fear and doubt a little at the time routinely and I am glad and I thank God.  As I begin to put things in order I see God's work in my life more clearly and I thank him for it.

I hope those who read this will do the same themselves and pray for me as I travel this road of cleansing.  Putting things in order with myself and God.