My Window

    Thursday, January 6, 2011, 3:54 PM [General]

    I stare out the window at the damp, grey sky and I feel the heaviness of this day down to my very core.  I notice the cars as they drive by, but I don't really see them.  I don't wonder where they're going or care what they're thinking.  I am only annoyed for the inconsiderate interruption.

    I notice the light beginning to fade and the shadows shifting.  It will be dark soon, and I will see nothing but my own reflection in the window I look through now... but I don't budge.  I want only to sit and wallow in my misery.  Staring at the rain helps me wallow and this is why I do it.

    Thoughts rush through my head at speeds that would put Earnhardt to shame.  I can't keep up with these thoughts, they make me dizzy and push me further down the hole I find myself in.

    My thoughts are suddenly broken by the sound of the wind whistling, and I again notice the window.  I can still see through it, but I am starting to see my opaque reflection.  And at the moment, my life makes perfect sense.

    In the light, I can look through my window and the view is clear.  I see the world and its inhabitants as they pass by.  I live my life based on what I see through that window.

    But in the darkness, I see only myself when I look through my window.  In the darkness, I live my life based only on my own selfish motives.

    It's easy to see in the light.  I can get through whatever life throws at me because I can see clearly.  But in times of struggle, it becomes difficult to see past my own reflection.  I cannot see so clearly what life throws at me.  It requires an effort to look past myself.

    My thoughts are broken again.  This time by the sound of my children playing.  I turn away from my window to see their happy faces, and my mind stops racing as I watch them play.

    My window has reminded me of the importance of what lies beyond myself.  The answer to the question I didn't realize I was looking for, was in my window all along.

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    An Introduction

    Tuesday, January 4, 2011, 2:25 PM [General]

    I'm new here and I just wanted to take a moment to introduce myself.  I spent 4 years blogging on myspace, that is until they changed to the new format.  I've met so many wonderful people there and have had so many interesting conversations.  Basically, I fell in love with blogging.  I really did not want to leave, but myspace made it clear that bloggers were not important to their new plan.  I deleted my account.

    I joined another social site called 'Friendburst', but I was bombarded by drama.  People there seem bent on ripping down others, and being intolerant toward different opinions.  After my third argument over religion with an atheist, I decided I did not want to subject myself to any more abuse.  I deleted that account as well.

    I'm not even sure how I stumbled upon this place, but it seems just what I'm looking for.  Spirituality is a big part of my life, and who knew there was a place for all of us?  I'm very excited to be a part of this community, and look forward to reading blogs and learning more about my spiritual self.

    Peace be with you all!

    3.7 (1 Ratings)

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