I am at a point in time. At this point I see myself as very suicidal. This is a point though. It might change, possibly it can change. However it is important to remember that it is only a point in time. I don't know what will come next and I don't know what has passed. I don't know though how to change my fate, if that is the correct way of expressing it. Is it even possible to change my fate. Is suicidality something I can control. I seem to think that it is something that I control. I think it would be wise to reexamine this idea.