So today he told me the lawyer said the divorce papers would be ready to sign Tuesday. Tuesday the day that I knew was coming is fixing to be here. I thought I would not be so upset. I am so angry. Everything I have built with him in the last ten years are gone. I should be happy. I mean our marriage was not a real marriage for a long time. I should be realived and apart of me is. Now I know I can be free to find some one who will treat me right and truly love me. But me trusting anyone is going be the problem in that. What makes me angry is that to him I am so wasy to throw away. It is like this is not even effecting him.I hate him for everything he has put me through. I hate that I stood by so long and tried when he did not care. So yes this is a good thing but it is so freaking hard. How do I start over? I am doing so much to keep busy like school and gardening and working out but at night when it is just me and baby girl I start thinking about everything I have done for him, and I get upset.