The last few days has been heck, with a lot of activity. Birthday party on Saturday and it was so good to be around some dear friends that I care for a lot. Sunday was church, and it was good but the big thing that day was that my husband ( we are separated) came over and cut my grass and cleaned my yard up ( near a acre with a slope). Now I texted and told him thank you, he said it was a thank you for lending him some money the other day. I do not know what to think about that, I do not want to read to much into it like I ususally do, but he is still paying me back the money and he did not have to come do that yard work. So I don't know right now, but do know lately I have been missing him a lot. Wish he would come home. I know I do not need him that I can make it on my own and I think that was a important lesson for me to learn but now I just miss him. Guess I miss the friendship but I do not know why we text and talk everyday. Just him being here and being able to sit down to watch a movie or something. Then Monday went with my grandmother, mother and daughter to a lake to go swiming it was a nice day, felt like the end of summer. And today started classes. I have to say now that I have gone to the first day my determination that I can do this that I can pass and go into the program and graduate is not as strong but that just the jitters. But I do realize I am really going have to study a lot. On that note I need to start studying.