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    THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN STRENGTH AND COURAGE

    Sunday, January 24, 2010, 5:24 PM [General]

    THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN STRENGTH AND COURAGE

    It takes strength to be firm.
    It takes courage to be gentle.

    It takes strength to stand guard.
    It takes courage to let down your guard.

    It takes strength to conquer
    It takes courage to surrender.

    It takes strength to be certain.
    It takes courage to have doubt.

    It takes strength to fit in.
    It takes courage to stand out.

    It takes strength to feel a friend's pain.
    It takes courage to feel your own pain.

    It takes strength to hide feelings.
    It takes courage to show them.

    It takes strength to endure abuse.
    It takes courage to stop it.

    It takes strength to stand alone.
    It takes courage to lean on another.

    It takes strength to love.
    It takes courage to be loved.

    It takes strength to survive.
    It takes courage to live.

     

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    "ANTICIPATION OF WHAT'S TO COME"

    Sunday, March 29, 2009, 12:02 PM [General]

    ANTICIPATION OF WHAT IS TO COME WITHIN ME , AND WHAT I AM NOW AND WHAT I WILL BE , OH  THE EXCITEMENT BUILDS WITHIN ME.  SEEING ME NOW , AND WANTING TO CHANGE INTO THE WOMAN THAT NEVER WAS HERE AND WASN'T SEEN.

    KNOWING WHAT I WANT NOW  AND HAVING NO DOUBTS OF HOW TO ACHIEVE IT , THERE'S NO TURNING AROUND.  WILL NOT RETREAT OR MOAN OR FROWN, ITS ALL WORTH IT AND  THAT 'S  SOMETHING I'M WILLING TO OWN.

    THE ROAD TO THIS NEWNESS IS NOT AN EASY TAKS, THE ROAD  HAS SOME SWEATING AND HARD WORK TO DO , AND WHEN I GET FINISH WILL I FINALLY BE SATISFIED WITH THE NEW ME.

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    "ANTICIPATION OF WHAT'S TO COME"

    Friday, March 27, 2009, 12:25 AM [General]

    THIS  ANTICIPATON  OF THE NEW ME,  THE OLD

    ONE MUST  GO ,  I MUST WORK HARD EACH AND

    EVERY DAY .  NO SUCCESS  HAS  EVER COME 

    WITHOUT  SOME PAIN  AND SWEAT FROM THE

    BROW .  THEN  MY MUSCLES  YELL OUT  , THEY

    HAVE  NOT BEEN  OVER WORKED  LIKE THIS NOW,

    AND PART OF ME IS SAYING  YOU GO GIRL, AND I 

    LAUGH  AT MYSELF.  CAN I GET  THAT GIRLISH 

    FIGURE BACK  AND BE THIN AS A RAIL AGAIN. 

    JUST TO KNOW I AM HEADING THE RIGHT WAY

    AND  NOT STOPPING  IS WHAT I LIVE ON   

    GIRLISH THOUGHTS  IN ME STIR , ALL THOSE NEW 

    CLOTHS  THAT ONCE CROWED MY LIFE,  I NOW 

    KNOW  WHAT  IS BETTER AND FORGE ON  TO THAT

    LEVEL OF SELF  I ONLY THOUGHT ABOUT.     MOST 

    OF  MY LIFE HAS BEEN  INCOMPLETE  AND

    UNFULFILLED  AND DENIED , WANT TO FEEL THE

    RADIANCE OF THE SUN WITHOUT FEELING I DON'T

    DESERVE IT, OR IT WILL BE SWIFTLY TAKEN FROM 

    ME.  MUST NOT  THINK THIS WAS , IT'S  HARD TO 

    SAY  WHAT  LIFE  HOLDS  IN STORE FOR EACH AND

    EVERY DAY.  ONLY  KNOW  THAT WITHOUT A

    DOUBT THAT  THIS EAGERNESS WILL GET ME TO

    THE NEW ME AND  THE ANTICIPATION  OF WHAT'S

    COMING FOR ME.  SIMPLYSHY

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    "Perplexed"

    Wednesday, March 18, 2009, 9:33 PM [General]

    Each and every day , decisions are made and some you feel perplexed,

    constantly wondering what "If's"  can only make you feel so perplexed,

    So many times in life you think you found what is right, and you find that

    it just wasn't so.  Instead of letting it get you down  so not to drown.  You take

    another road, that maybe narrow and rocky , but you take your lantern and

    go on . Hoping to find some kind of shelter for the night that will keep you

    safe from the rain.  It won't stop pouring at times and the tears can better

    hide in the darkness of the room  they had left.  The metal roof is not

    soothing and the hard pounces upon it keep me from any sleep.  then

    the birds start to sing and I realize  that life is starting to stir, a few  hours

    from now the sun will be placed in the skies.   Will my journey begin

    again, to somewhere  strange and  never traveled by me.  I have to

    get started and  throw some water on my face , will this keep me  sane

    while the narrow roads will soon begin?  A slice of bread is given to me and a

    pot of tea to last me the rest of the day. So off on my journey a little bit

    worried , but won't let myself look back.  Because I know if I do, I will lose

    all this new self confidence I finally found. Will this keep me afloat  while

    I travel for days to a new place I hope I will find.

    Then there comes a y in the road , and I wonder which one holds my future

    which one should I try.  I want to cry out road which one of you will be less

    painless than the place I came from. So the child in me picks a stone from the

    road and twirls around and gives it a throw and where it lands I will go.

    Ah , yes that is a good one , thanks dear stone for taking the choice  from

    my heart. Can't trust it now, its' desperately needing to mend. No blood

    oozing out and all those bandages held from the wounding  that recently

    took place . The last final blow, and no turning back  the doors were

    all closed  and locked.  I didn't bang or plead let me back in., too many

    times it took place.  So how do I  go without , I have been given  no choice.

    This day seems so long  and the road seem to come to a clearing up ahead,

    with a beautiful pond and a fountain in the middle of it .  Fresh flowers all

    about , and a bench near the oak tree , seems it time to relax and ponder

    my next move.  Hunger and thirst hasn't even taken  hold as I look around

    this beautiful clearing.  There is a small chapel  with an elderly woman

    looking at me . Would you like to come inside and enjoy my lunch with me.

    Its not much mind you, its' just homemade bread and clover honey  and

    some  well water I just gathered.  I smiled back at her and slowly went in

    and accepted her generosity.  We talked for sometime  and she reminded me

    of a grandmother I lost long ago. Stay for awhile ,my child before you

    travel down that endless road.

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    Within Me

    Wednesday, March 18, 2009, 8:31 AM [General]

            Within Me stirs things only imagined and dreamed, wanting to

    see all these dreams come alive.  I love to create things and  make things

     out of the unusual of things , and then sit back and wonder  am I still a child

    within,  that loves  to make such things  and watch  young children play  with

    things that  are beautiful now, but  once a throw away.  Amazed  and laugh

    at a once awkward child that had teachers exclaim  my what  am

    unimaginative  child.  Oh , how I would love those  ones who never knew 

    me at all.  to come and play with these things  I have made,  dollhouses,

    castles with towers so high, made of cardboard boxes that once were thrown

    away.  A old painting that now is a checkers board and cardboard  circles that

    are  red and black with crowns of their own.  Puppets with dustmop hair and

    odds and ends for a face,

    I'm not bragging or boasting of these, only laugh at myself  for the little girl

    in me  who never had any of these .  So now they are here for children to

    play and for me to join in  and be part of their games.  Even to sit back and

    listen to them play, and get such fun and joy at these unusual things I've

    made.  My Chrissy wanted a swing set for her dollies  and I thought quickly, give me 5 even colored pensils and  I got the glue gun and some flat fancy stick  and a piece of a dowl pole and within minutes she had a swin with red colored thread that I was using to finish a red sectional couch.  Then its  I need a potty for my dollies , they hurt mighty bad , they are con-see-pated she exclaimed , and I doubled over and laughed till I cried.  My sweet Chrissy has such imagination and such faith in me to accomplish anything she wants from me.  So we got her a bathroom for this large dollhouses  and the sisters argued over who would use it first.  She still tried to control the use over it, never knew the "tHRONE " would cause such a fit.

    I try to teach them to give and not to expect in return, what a glorious gift  to give a young one. Today they get so many expensive things from her dads side and comes home to the common things .

    We've all made Easter Cards for Children that have a Peter Cotton Tail Song and they want to pass them out where we live and  have baskets to put them in.  I hope I can get them some bunny ears  as they deliver each card, and wish each  Easter Greetings  and have a good day.

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    Daybreak Is Trying To Emerge

    Tuesday, March 17, 2009, 7:54 AM [General]

    Still  in this deep darkness I know daybreak is upon me as I hear the birds sing their songs of praise.  Can see only the glimpse of naked trees  outside my darken window.

    How long will you take and to bring some daylight into my life again, this past night was hell and I want out of it now, this pain has to stop soon I pray.  No more tolerating those who step on your toes and laugh behind your back.

    When all I have done to them is become a dear friend and treat them with the greatest respect.  Is this a friend, faithful to the end?  Is this what life has to offer?

    Come on mornings light , set me free from last night and into the the light of today, and surely I'll find a new beginning and see a all kinds of possibilities for me to try. 

    Youre  slowly assending to bring a final ending to this insanity of this past night, and promises of today , and all that lay at my feet , if I would give them a try.

    As the darkness slowly dispurses an array of colors fill the sky, some purples and pale blues , some odd color green and a bit of yellow too.  Never gave the time to watch you arise and begin the newness of day. How you paint your skies ,as the birds sing their sweet morning songs of praise . 

    When I look down and then outside to take a glance, you change right before me again, how can all of this be so beautiful to view ,does anyone else take the time. To see the glorious change of guards as the daylight sends the darkness away.

    I'm waiting so very patiently for daybreak to be free from its captive and consume the skies, so no rainy days , or clouds overhead , just the sunshine beating down on my face , then I can be free from this darkness that had me wrapped in its sick evil embrace.

    Then, these birds I will see outside my window in these naked trees in all their beauty arrayed. Seem to be saying ' Come look at me, I brought the world out of sleep, and prepared them for another new day"

    Now the Sun has taken up his place in majestic skies for all to see, so please stay awhile and make this day smile and take every sad face away. No more pain on my sleeves and the tears I did weep from the darkness that encamped all around me.  I need a new place to find some healing and peace of mind and friends that are true heart and honest within.

     

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    CONFUSED AND FORGOTTEN

    Tuesday, March 17, 2009, 3:55 AM [General]

    IN THE DARKNESS OF THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT SLEEP EVADES ME AND I FEEL SO FORGOTTEN IN THIS DEEP DARKNESS AND WONDER WHY SO ALONE AND FORGOTTEN.

    NEVER A DRIFT OFF OR A BIT OF A NAP ITS OVER 3:50AM AND NOTHING HAS HAPPENED AND  OFFENDED AND HURT  I GET UP AND REJECT THE THINGS  I ONCE TRIED TO GET ME TO RELAX .

    SO MANY THINGS ATTACKING MY PEACE OF MIND , PEOPLE CALLED FRIENDS ARE PLAYING WITH MY MIND, MY HEART HAS BEEN ATTACKED AND THE BLOOD OOZES OUT , THERE IS NO RELIEF THAT IS SOMETHING I AM CLEAR ABOUT .

    WHY ATTACK NICENESS AND KINDNESS AND TRUTH, WHY DOES BEING A GOSSIPER SEEM TO OTHERS THE BETTER WAY.  CAN'T COMPREHEND HOW THIS TWISTED WAY IS SO RIGHT, DON'T WANT ANY PART OF IT , I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TRY.  ALL THAT MY LIFE HAS BEEN WOULD BE DESTROYED IF I WERE LIKE THEM. TRYING TO CAUSE A  TROUBLE WHERE NONE HAD BEEN. SOUNDING LIKE NEW REPORTERS AND THEIR LATEST SCOOPS AND WANT TO KNOW IF YOU CAN READ THEIR MINDS AS THEY ASK GUESS WHO OR WHO DO YOU THINK  OR WHY WOULD YOU THINK THAT , I FEEL  MY INSIDES DOING SAD THINGS, TAKING THESE THINGS IN AND NOT STOPPING THEIR ATTACKS , I NEED TO KNOW WHAT NO IS ALL ABOUT.

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    Unto You, Who Lives In The Heavens , I Lift Up My Prayers

    Sunday, March 15, 2009, 1:42 PM [General]

    Unto You Who Lives In The Heavens, I Lift Up My Prayers, I Lift Up My Prayers.

    Only in Your Presence can I find a fullness of joy and the Peace I find there is

    has no measure, my heart cries out Abba Papa and My Spirit needs that union

    with You Holy Spirit, Touch my heart and keep me planted in Fertile Soil,  So that as

    You water me , I may grow.  Love Me to Life My Lord, And Fill Me with Your Mercies

    And Graces .  For all prayers that You answer I give You praise for all of it.

     

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    " He Will Lift You Up On Eagles Wings"

    Saturday, March 14, 2009, 9:21 PM [General]

    Make You Shine Unto The Sun , And Hold You In The Palm of His Hands,
    Our Lives Are Totally  In His Hands, Knowing This Brings Such Joy And Peace,
    Nothing Dare Come Against You.  Plus All  Things Are So Possible With Our Father,
    Things We Dared Not Ask Are Being Answered  And  Not Placing  His  Abilities  In A
    Box  Any More ,  Assures  That  Our  Trust  Is  Surely  In The Lord.  May  We Come
    To  Realize  His  Infinite Beauty And Love For Us That No Man Can Comprehend.
    The Sacrifice Of The Savior Is Coming Near, And The Glorious  Easter Celebration,
    Of Him  Rising  From  The Dead,  With His  Last Days  On Earth Will We Truly
    Understand  All  He  Has  In Store  For Us  To  The Very End. 
    The Lord  Is  In  His  Holy Temple  Let  All  The  World  Rejoice.......... Our Savior Lives !!
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    "Memory Box"

    Sunday, February 22, 2009, 9:59 PM [General]

    A Box Of Memories Of One Sunny Day,

    When We Laughed And Played In The Sun,

    Pushing You So Hi That You Nearly Touched

    The Sky Is What You Seemed To Want

    Till I Bent Over And I Heard You Say

    Nana Let Me "Kick You In The Butt".

    So I Eagerly Agreed , And Let You

    Perceive That Your Goal Was Right

    In Sight. And With Each And Every Try

    It Just Seemed To Slip By.

    As He Missed By Only A Hair.

    Your Head , It Hung Down And You Started

    To Frown, So I Turned And Gave You A

    Wink,,,

    The Very Next Try Would Put A Gleam In

    Your Eyes As You Kicked Your Nana's'

    "Butt"

    Dedicated To My

    Jacob Wyatt M.

    My first Precious grandson,

    Whom I first got to hold on the day you were born,

    While Mother laid in her recovery bed unable to hold

    you in her arms, Mine were right there as we watch

    the Nurse prepare you to be held, I was the first

    as the Nurse handed me a bottle to give you your

    first drink, your mom gave a wink and I gave you that

    drink and kept you safe in my loving arms.

    your daddy & mamal did all they could try to keep me

    away from you as they had done to your sister .

    But I would not budge , as I held you close to my heart.

    I even got to take you to the room you would share

    with your mom.

    I never knew such joy, could be found holding you

    in this new room, then they came back as they brought

    mommy in and I smiled like a Chesser Cat.

    I stood my ground without a sound , I wanted

    no minced words. Just smiled at them and

    kissed my Jacob and his mommy , my daughter

    on the forehead. take care my loves I will visit

    again....

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