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Sunday, January 24, 2010, 5:24 PM
|THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN STRENGTH AND COURAGE
It takes strength to be firm.
It takes courage to be gentle.
It takes strength to stand guard.
It takes courage to let down your guard.
It takes strength to conquer
It takes courage to surrender.
It takes strength to be certain.
It takes courage to have doubt.
It takes strength to fit in.
It takes courage to stand out.
It takes strength to feel a friend's pain.
It takes courage to feel your own pain.
It takes strength to hide feelings.
It takes courage to show them.
It takes strength to endure abuse.
It takes courage to stop it.
It takes strength to stand alone.
It takes courage to lean on another.
It takes strength to love.
It takes courage to be loved.
It takes strength to survive.
It takes courage to live.
Sunday, March 29, 2009, 12:02 PM
ANTICIPATION OF WHAT IS TO COME WITHIN ME , AND WHAT I AM NOW AND WHAT I WILL BE , OH THE EXCITEMENT BUILDS WITHIN ME. SEEING ME NOW , AND WANTING TO CHANGE INTO THE WOMAN THAT NEVER WAS HERE AND WASN'T SEEN.
KNOWING WHAT I WANT NOW AND HAVING NO DOUBTS OF HOW TO ACHIEVE IT , THERE'S NO TURNING AROUND. WILL NOT RETREAT OR MOAN OR FROWN, ITS ALL WORTH IT AND THAT 'S SOMETHING I'M WILLING TO OWN.
THE ROAD TO THIS NEWNESS IS NOT AN EASY TAKS, THE ROAD HAS SOME SWEATING AND HARD WORK TO DO , AND WHEN I GET FINISH WILL I FINALLY BE SATISFIED WITH THE NEW ME.
Friday, March 27, 2009, 12:25 AM
THIS ANTICIPATON OF THE NEW ME, THE OLD
ONE MUST GO , I MUST WORK HARD EACH AND
EVERY DAY . NO SUCCESS HAS EVER COME
WITHOUT SOME PAIN AND SWEAT FROM THE
BROW . THEN MY MUSCLES YELL OUT , THEY
HAVE NOT BEEN OVER WORKED LIKE THIS NOW,
AND PART OF ME IS SAYING YOU GO GIRL, AND I
LAUGH AT MYSELF. CAN I GET THAT GIRLISH
FIGURE BACK AND BE THIN AS A RAIL AGAIN.
JUST TO KNOW I AM HEADING THE RIGHT WAY
AND NOT STOPPING IS WHAT I LIVE ON
GIRLISH THOUGHTS IN ME STIR , ALL THOSE NEW
CLOTHS THAT ONCE CROWED MY LIFE, I NOW
KNOW WHAT IS BETTER AND FORGE ON TO THAT
LEVEL OF SELF I ONLY THOUGHT ABOUT. MOST
OF MY LIFE HAS BEEN INCOMPLETE AND
UNFULFILLED AND DENIED , WANT TO FEEL THE
RADIANCE OF THE SUN WITHOUT FEELING I DON'T
DESERVE IT, OR IT WILL BE SWIFTLY TAKEN FROM
ME. MUST NOT THINK THIS WAS , IT'S HARD TO
SAY WHAT LIFE HOLDS IN STORE FOR EACH AND
EVERY DAY. ONLY KNOW THAT WITHOUT A
DOUBT THAT THIS EAGERNESS WILL GET ME TO
THE NEW ME AND THE ANTICIPATION OF WHAT'S
COMING FOR ME. SIMPLYSHY
Wednesday, March 18, 2009, 9:33 PM
Each and every day , decisions are made and some you feel perplexed,
constantly wondering what "If's" can only make you feel so perplexed,
So many times in life you think you found what is right, and you find that
it just wasn't so. Instead of letting it get you down so not to drown. You take
another road, that maybe narrow and rocky , but you take your lantern and
go on . Hoping to find some kind of shelter for the night that will keep you
safe from the rain. It won't stop pouring at times and the tears can better
hide in the darkness of the room they had left. The metal roof is not
soothing and the hard pounces upon it keep me from any sleep. then
the birds start to sing and I realize that life is starting to stir, a few hours
from now the sun will be placed in the skies. Will my journey begin
again, to somewhere strange and never traveled by me. I have to
get started and throw some water on my face , will this keep me sane
while the narrow roads will soon begin? A slice of bread is given to me and a
pot of tea to last me the rest of the day. So off on my journey a little bit
worried , but won't let myself look back. Because I know if I do, I will lose
all this new self confidence I finally found. Will this keep me afloat while
I travel for days to a new place I hope I will find.
Then there comes a y in the road , and I wonder which one holds my future
which one should I try. I want to cry out road which one of you will be less
painless than the place I came from. So the child in me picks a stone from the
road and twirls around and gives it a throw and where it lands I will go.
Ah , yes that is a good one , thanks dear stone for taking the choice from
my heart. Can't trust it now, its' desperately needing to mend. No blood
oozing out and all those bandages held from the wounding that recently
took place . The last final blow, and no turning back the doors were
all closed and locked. I didn't bang or plead let me back in., too many
times it took place. So how do I go without , I have been given no choice.
This day seems so long and the road seem to come to a clearing up ahead,
with a beautiful pond and a fountain in the middle of it . Fresh flowers all
about , and a bench near the oak tree , seems it time to relax and ponder
my next move. Hunger and thirst hasn't even taken hold as I look around
this beautiful clearing. There is a small chapel with an elderly woman
looking at me . Would you like to come inside and enjoy my lunch with me.
Its not much mind you, its' just homemade bread and clover honey and
some well water I just gathered. I smiled back at her and slowly went in
and accepted her generosity. We talked for sometime and she reminded me
of a grandmother I lost long ago. Stay for awhile ,my child before you
travel down that endless road.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009, 8:31 AM
Within Me stirs things only imagined and dreamed, wanting to
see all these dreams come alive. I love to create things and make things
out of the unusual of things , and then sit back and wonder am I still a child
within, that loves to make such things and watch young children play with
things that are beautiful now, but once a throw away. Amazed and laugh
at a once awkward child that had teachers exclaim my what am
unimaginative child. Oh , how I would love those ones who never knew
me at all. to come and play with these things I have made, dollhouses,
castles with towers so high, made of cardboard boxes that once were thrown
away. A old painting that now is a checkers board and cardboard circles that
are red and black with crowns of their own. Puppets with dustmop hair and
odds and ends for a face,
I'm not bragging or boasting of these, only laugh at myself for the little girl
in me who never had any of these . So now they are here for children to
play and for me to join in and be part of their games. Even to sit back and
listen to them play, and get such fun and joy at these unusual things I've
made. My Chrissy wanted a swing set for her dollies and I thought quickly, give me 5 even colored pensils and I got the glue gun and some flat fancy stick and a piece of a dowl pole and within minutes she had a swin with red colored thread that I was using to finish a red sectional couch. Then its I need a potty for my dollies , they hurt mighty bad , they are con-see-pated she exclaimed , and I doubled over and laughed till I cried. My sweet Chrissy has such imagination and such faith in me to accomplish anything she wants from me. So we got her a bathroom for this large dollhouses and the sisters argued over who would use it first. She still tried to control the use over it, never knew the "tHRONE " would cause such a fit.
I try to teach them to give and not to expect in return, what a glorious gift to give a young one. Today they get so many expensive things from her dads side and comes home to the common things .
We've all made Easter Cards for Children that have a Peter Cotton Tail Song and they want to pass them out where we live and have baskets to put them in. I hope I can get them some bunny ears as they deliver each card, and wish each Easter Greetings and have a good day.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009, 7:54 AM
Still in this deep darkness I know daybreak is upon me as I hear the birds sing their songs of praise. Can see only the glimpse of naked trees outside my darken window.
How long will you take and to bring some daylight into my life again, this past night was hell and I want out of it now, this pain has to stop soon I pray. No more tolerating those who step on your toes and laugh behind your back.
When all I have done to them is become a dear friend and treat them with the greatest respect. Is this a friend, faithful to the end? Is this what life has to offer?
Come on mornings light , set me free from last night and into the the light of today, and surely I'll find a new beginning and see a all kinds of possibilities for me to try.
Youre slowly assending to bring a final ending to this insanity of this past night, and promises of today , and all that lay at my feet , if I would give them a try.
As the darkness slowly dispurses an array of colors fill the sky, some purples and pale blues , some odd color green and a bit of yellow too. Never gave the time to watch you arise and begin the newness of day. How you paint your skies ,as the birds sing their sweet morning songs of praise .
When I look down and then outside to take a glance, you change right before me again, how can all of this be so beautiful to view ,does anyone else take the time. To see the glorious change of guards as the daylight sends the darkness away.
I'm waiting so very patiently for daybreak to be free from its captive and consume the skies, so no rainy days , or clouds overhead , just the sunshine beating down on my face , then I can be free from this darkness that had me wrapped in its sick evil embrace.
Then, these birds I will see outside my window in these naked trees in all their beauty arrayed. Seem to be saying ' Come look at me, I brought the world out of sleep, and prepared them for another new day"
Now the Sun has taken up his place in majestic skies for all to see, so please stay awhile and make this day smile and take every sad face away. No more pain on my sleeves and the tears I did weep from the darkness that encamped all around me. I need a new place to find some healing and peace of mind and friends that are true heart and honest within.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009, 3:55 AM
IN THE DARKNESS OF THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT SLEEP EVADES ME AND I FEEL SO FORGOTTEN IN THIS DEEP DARKNESS AND WONDER WHY SO ALONE AND FORGOTTEN.
NEVER A DRIFT OFF OR A BIT OF A NAP ITS OVER 3:50AM AND NOTHING HAS HAPPENED AND OFFENDED AND HURT I GET UP AND REJECT THE THINGS I ONCE TRIED TO GET ME TO RELAX .
SO MANY THINGS ATTACKING MY PEACE OF MIND , PEOPLE CALLED FRIENDS ARE PLAYING WITH MY MIND, MY HEART HAS BEEN ATTACKED AND THE BLOOD OOZES OUT , THERE IS NO RELIEF THAT IS SOMETHING I AM CLEAR ABOUT .
WHY ATTACK NICENESS AND KINDNESS AND TRUTH, WHY DOES BEING A GOSSIPER SEEM TO OTHERS THE BETTER WAY. CAN'T COMPREHEND HOW THIS TWISTED WAY IS SO RIGHT, DON'T WANT ANY PART OF IT , I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TRY. ALL THAT MY LIFE HAS BEEN WOULD BE DESTROYED IF I WERE LIKE THEM. TRYING TO CAUSE A TROUBLE WHERE NONE HAD BEEN. SOUNDING LIKE NEW REPORTERS AND THEIR LATEST SCOOPS AND WANT TO KNOW IF YOU CAN READ THEIR MINDS AS THEY ASK GUESS WHO OR WHO DO YOU THINK OR WHY WOULD YOU THINK THAT , I FEEL MY INSIDES DOING SAD THINGS, TAKING THESE THINGS IN AND NOT STOPPING THEIR ATTACKS , I NEED TO KNOW WHAT NO IS ALL ABOUT.
Sunday, March 15, 2009, 1:42 PM
Unto You Who Lives In The Heavens, I Lift Up My Prayers, I Lift Up My Prayers.
Only in Your Presence can I find a fullness of joy and the Peace I find there is
has no measure, my heart cries out Abba Papa and My Spirit needs that union
with You Holy Spirit, Touch my heart and keep me planted in Fertile Soil, So that as
You water me , I may grow. Love Me to Life My Lord, And Fill Me with Your Mercies
And Graces . For all prayers that You answer I give You praise for all of it.
Saturday, March 14, 2009, 9:21 PM
Make You Shine Unto The Sun , And Hold You In The Palm of His Hands,Our Lives Are Totally In His Hands, Knowing This Brings Such Joy And Peace,Nothing Dare Come Against You. Plus All Things Are So Possible With Our Father,Things We Dared Not Ask Are Being Answered And Not Placing His Abilities In ABox Any More , Assures That Our Trust Is Surely In The Lord. May We Come To Realize His Infinite Beauty And Love For Us That No Man Can Comprehend.The Sacrifice Of The Savior Is Coming Near, And The Glorious Easter Celebration, Of Him Rising From The Dead, With His Last Days On Earth Will We Truly Understand All He Has In Store For Us To The Very End. The Lord Is In His Holy Temple Let All The World Rejoice.......... Our Savior Lives !!
Sunday, February 22, 2009, 9:59 PM
A Box Of Memories Of One Sunny Day,
When We Laughed And Played In The Sun,
Pushing You So Hi That You Nearly Touched
The Sky Is What You Seemed To Want
Till I Bent Over And I Heard You Say
Nana Let Me "Kick You In The Butt".
So I Eagerly Agreed , And Let You
Perceive That Your Goal Was Right
In Sight. And With Each And Every Try
It Just Seemed To Slip By.
As He Missed By Only A Hair.
Your Head , It Hung Down And You Started
To Frown, So I Turned And Gave You A
The Very Next Try Would Put A Gleam In
Your Eyes As You Kicked Your Nana's'
Dedicated To My
Jacob Wyatt M.
My first Precious grandson,
Whom I first got to hold on the day you were born,
While Mother laid in her recovery bed unable to hold
you in her arms, Mine were right there as we watch
the Nurse prepare you to be held, I was the first
as the Nurse handed me a bottle to give you your
first drink, your mom gave a wink and I gave you that
drink and kept you safe in my loving arms.
your daddy & mamal did all they could try to keep me
away from you as they had done to your sister .
But I would not budge , as I held you close to my heart.
I even got to take you to the room you would share
with your mom.
I never knew such joy, could be found holding you
in this new room, then they came back as they brought
mommy in and I smiled like a Chesser Cat.
I stood my ground without a sound , I wanted
no minced words. Just smiled at them and
kissed my Jacob and his mommy , my daughter
on the forehead. take care my loves I will visit