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    Feeling uplifted

    Saturday, May 31, 2008, 1:43 AM [General]

    The last few weeks, I have been feeling very down about things.  I've been trying desperately to quit smoking, with out much luck.  I've cut down quite a bit, but I can only seem to quit for a few days at a time.  This has been a very stressful period in my life, because I am in the process of helping my man get his new business of the ground, as well as trying to convince my mentally troubled son to get the help that he so desperately needs.  I guess i just picked a bad time to quit.  And then, after being away from B-net for about 3 weeks, I decided to log on to see how everyone was doing and catch up on whatever i had missed, and what did I find?  My own face staring back at me from the main community page!!  Very disconcerting to say the least!  There I was, with a caption asking B-net users to help me quit smoking.  Wow!  I was just about ready to give up on the quitting idea.  The powers that be had a different agenda, apparently.  So, being inspired by this new development, I decided to start a group, with the intent of helping others like me, who really want to quit, but have just about given up.  It has given me a whole new outlook on things.  And I never expected such a great response!  Smokers, non-smokers, and ex-smokers have all rallied to this cause!  It's a very encouraging situation, and I am hoping to return these wonderful feelings to those of this group who need it the most.  It's amazing to me to discover, that at one of the times in my life when I was feeling the most alone, I was just a click away from being surrounded by loving and caring, compassionate people.  This place just keeps getting better and better.  Thanks B-net!  I think I'll stick around for awhile.Laughing
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    When was the last time I cried

    Friday, April 18, 2008, 2:30 PM [General]

    Well, believe it or not, it was just about a week ago when I quit smoking.  I was throwing all my assorted paraphenalia away, and I was overcome by sadness, almost as if I had lost my best friend.  I know that sounds strange, that I could be overwhelmed by emotion, giving up something that was essentially bad for me, but it really did feel like I was closing the door on a very long chapter of my life.  Very similar to ending a relationship.  Smoking was such an integral part of my life, and giving it up was like losing a part of myself.  Regardless of how anyone else sees it, that day was both one of the saddest, and one of the happiest days of my life.  It has been worth every tear.Smile
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    Quit Smoking!

    Friday, April 11, 2008, 6:06 PM [General]

    Well, I quit smoking about 5 days ago, and I'll be honest....it has been a challenging and enlightening experience.  I went cold turkey, and it's been tough, but I found some very supportive people here, both in the forums and in some of the groups I belong to.  All in all, I would say, things are looking much better than the last 4 times i tried to quit.  Here's hoping it sticks. 

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    Feeling very spiritual

    Saturday, March 8, 2008, 2:33 PM [General]

    When I first joined this site, I was feeling very disconnected from myself and pretty much the whole human race.  Now that I've spent some time here and gotten settled in I have noticed that a profound change is taking place in my life.  I have focused a great deal on the spiritual aspects of my life, and although I still haven't settled on one specific aspect, I do feel as though I am making positive forward progression in many areas.  Overall, my whole attitude in general is taking a positive turn, and as I am usually a pessimist, I would say this is definitely progress.  Opening up to the people I have met, whether thru groups, forums or private communication has greatly helped in this area.   It is such a relief to be able to ask questions and state opinions in an open and honest way, and receive the same in return, and without judgement.  Who could ask for anything more?  PeaceSmile
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    Every Day Dawns Brighter Than The One Before

    Monday, February 18, 2008, 12:05 PM [General]

    I can't begin to tell you the difference being a member of this community has made in my life. Thru the advice and encouragement of the friends I have made here, as well as complete strangers in the forums, I have begun making positive changes in my life. Some of these changes include rediscovering my yoga and meditation practices,(oh, how I missed these essentials!), finding a doctor who listens to me and is willing to work with me in regards to my health and well being. Also, I have begun making changes in my diet(like actually eating), incorporating good for me foods and getting rid of the feel good right now foods. I have started believing in angels, in part because I have met so mnay real life angels here, but also because I have begun to feel a new guidance with in me that I never noticed before. I guess that's what happens when you open yourself up to the beauty that surrounds us all. Most importantly I have found a new appreciation for myself and who I am becoming. It grows and evolves everyday and I am eternally gratefull for the inspiration I have received here. Blessings to you all. Shelly
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    Valentines Day

    Thursday, February 14, 2008, 4:21 PM [General]

    YOu know I woke up this morning dreading this day. I'm single-I hate it; I'm lonely-I hate it; everyone else is happy but me. you get the picture, I'm sure we've all been there at one time or another. And then I decided that I was tired of feeling that way. I was going to do something to change it. So I logged on here at Bnet and sent a Valentine to everyone on my friends list wishing for them everything I didn't have in my life. Didn't really think it would make much of a difference, but hey, it was a start, right? Little did I know what a profound effect this tiny little effort would have over the course of the next few hours. I felt better simply having done it but never really expected anything in return. Logged off, went about my business shopping , cleaning, blah, blah, just doing whatever I could to take my mind off the fact that this was a horrible day. finished all my busy work, so I decided to log back on and kill some time playing a game or two and reading some forums. When I got to my home page I was Shocked!! There were so many return wishes it took me an hour to read them all! Never had I received so many Valentine's wishes, not even back in grade school when you gotta give em to everyone so no body feels bad. This made me feel so much better knowing there were people out there who actually cared. So here I sit sorting thru this out-pouring of well wishes, when I here a knock at my door. I certainly wasn't expecting anyone today so I assumed it was just the mailman or something. Well, it definitely wasn't the mailman! It was my ex-fiance, the guy who woke up one day last month and decided he just couldn't be with me anymore and moved out with no explanation whatsoever. Standing on my porch, telling me how leaving me was the biggest mistake he had ever made in his life and could he please have a second chance to make things right. Well, you coulda knocked me over with a feather! Did I welcome him back with open arms? NO! Did I at least let him come in and hear him out? yes, I still love the guy after all. Turns out, he was really stressed out at work and it carried over to our life at home. On top of that,I have a very beautiful, independant, and extremely outspoken 17 year old daughter who has absolutely no problem telling people exactly what she thinks and what they they need to do about it(I really don't know where she gets that from) and apparently she took every opportunity to tell him what a loser he is. He said that all this led him to believe that we(my girls and I) would be better off with out him( and, of course, she whole-heartedly agreed) so he packed his things and left thinking that doing it quickly and coldly would be the easiest way for all concerned. Unfortunately for him, he couldn't seem to get me out of his head and since he left he has been absolutely miserable with out us. We, on the other hand were trying bery hard to pick up the pieces and move on with our lives, giving him very little or no thought. Surprising developments indeed. Have I decided to let him back into our lives, picking up where we left off as though nothing happened, no. Sorry, there are still some issues to be worked out. But I have decided that, in the spirit of St. Valentine, to at least give him the opportunity to mend things and see where things go from there. So, I guess the point of all this blabbering is(if you're even still reading, thank you)I had made the decision to send out blessings to everyone never expecting anything in return, and what I recieved was a new insight into the power of love. Lesson well learned. Thank you to all of you who took the time to send out those good vibrations. They actually brought something good with them. I will keep you informed. Bless you all. Shelly
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    To every one how has accepted my friendship

    Tuesday, February 12, 2008, 9:26 AM [General]

    Thank you so much for you show of support.  I am somewhat overwhelmed with the results.  I honestly thought noone would respond to a complete stranger.  I have been very pleasantly surprised and feel genuinely blessed.  I am very much looking forward to getting to know each and every one of you and any one else who would be interested in sharing this journey with me.  There is actually some light shining at the end of this tunnel I am in and I no longer feel alone in the world.  Blessing to you all and please feel free to contact me at any time to share whatever your heart desires.  Life, indeed, is too short to be alone.

    Namaste, Shelly

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    1/26/08

    Saturday, January 26, 2008, 9:40 AM [General]

    This is my first time ever doing this and I'm not exactly sure what I'm doing. I've never really felt like I belonged any where.  I'm hoping to create a network of people who will help me find that sense of belonging that is so blatantly missing in my life.  Life is too short to feel alone.  peace,

                                                    Shelly

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