Good morning and welcome!

I've been out for a week and will be "out" again for a few more days.  I am purging my past by tossing out the things that keep my mind cluttered with memories.  I am preparing for the new life that I am praying for.

Prayer...what is prayer?  Is it asking? Begging? making a statement of a new reality?  Well I've reduced myself to begging!  The decorum of creating my "new reality" is lost due to my lack of discipline and my giving my personal will to another....I have allowed my time, my energy to be expended in the service of another....my family and my personal needs go unmet.  This has caused me to become angry....I now have to ask God to get me out of it.... 

I once heard a phrase that made me cringe...."Tender mercies please...."  This phrase was heard in the context of a movie in which torture was involved.  I am not suffering such physical torture, but I am suffering from the lack of freedom.   I have to get out of it, but its such a cycle...that I am afraid if I get off too suddenly, I might break something (figuratively speaking of course)......back to my purging...see you all Monday!  I plan to create a plan to meditate......

warm waves of universal love, light, freedom and bliss to you all...

thanks for reading!