I am (was) a novelist, artist, writer, college teacher, yoga teacher, etc. Chronic pain has caused me to become a burden to society and I am now one of the disenfranchised. I pray and hope that one day the pain will be managed as 12 years of living with disability has taught me compassion. I am hoping to be able to control the pain enough to become a Sister, but I do not have much time as I am getting old. I don't know whether to continue to be a burden or to take my life. I just want to be at peace with God, as I used to be when I was healthier before I pass. I was lucky enough to have undergone Last Rites in Church--the Priest gave it to everyone as he saw it as a way to put the past behind us.