My last post here was that I was still.... undivorced. Sigh. Guess what. Months later... nothing has changed.
Well, maybe a little has. Tomorrow is what may...and I use the term loosely...MAY be one of the final ones on the custody side of the house. I currently have "temporary" full physical custody, and have had it since Feb 2009. Tomorrow will determine if I will have full physical and full legal.
This journey has taught me a lot. I have become something that I never longed to be: a single parent. Don't get me wrong, that is not a slam against single parents... to the contrary, I have always held them in a sense of awe and wonder. I could never figure out how they "did it".
Now, I know. I am a member of "the club".
In my situation, there is a huge blessing in being in this position. It allows me to make sure what I want done for the sake of my sons is done. Even if it is only done because I do it. They are not bouncing between two parental homes, neither one quite theirs. They live in THEIR home. And let me stay there too.
They are two of the most personable, bright, sweet, outgoing, confident, popular little boys around. The drug exposure they faced in the womb has affected their ease of learning... but we know its there and are doing a lot of outside work to keep them on track.
Tomorrow, I still won't be officially "divorced". But I may be just a little more unstressed. Or... maybe not.