I'VE BEEN THINKING ALOT THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS ABOUT OUR AFTERLIFE. WHETHTER OR NOT THERE IS A HEAVEN AND A HELL. WILL I REALLY ONE DAY SEE MY PRECIOUS DAUGHTER AGAIN, ALONG WITH MY OTHER RELATIVES, IN HEAVEN, OR IS THIS IT. I WONDER WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENS TO US AFTER DEATH. DON'T GET ME WRONG, I DO BELIEVE IN GOD AND LIVING OUR LIVES THE RIGHT WAY IN ORDER TO REACH HIM. I WAS RAISED THAT WAY MY ENTIRE LIFE IN CHURCH. I GUESS LAYLA'S PASSING HAS MADE ME WONDER WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY DAUGHTER'S SPIRIT. IS SHE REALLY AN ANGEL NOW OR IS THAT A MYTH? I DO KNOW AT ONE TIME I WAS AFRAID OF DEATH-MY DEATH. NOW I AM NOT BECAUSE I DO SO WANT TO SEE MY BABY GIRL AGAIN. FOR THAT MATTER MY SON ALSO WHEN OUR TIME COMES. I WANT ALL OF US TOGETHER AGAIN AND I THINK THAT IS WHAT KEEPS ME GOING THROUGH EACH DAY, THAT BELIEF.I KNOW NOW I AM RESEARCHING ANGELS, HEAVEN AND HELL, ANYTHING HAVING TO DO WITH DEATH BECAUSE I WORRY ABOUT LAYLA, NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS ABOUT HER BEING IN HEAVEN AND GOD'S CHOSEN ANGEL, I STILL WORRY. IGUESS THAT IS A MOTHER'S INSTINCT TO WORRY ABOUT OUR CHILDREN.I MISS HER SO MUCH AND CAN NOT FULLY UNDERSTAND THE REASONING BEHIND GOD PUTTING THIS PAIN IN MY LIFE, WHAT I AM BEING PUNISHED FOR.