Thank goodness i found this site i've been looking high and low for something like this.
I'm a recovering alcoholic that has struggled for about six years with my addiction. I've gone to two rehabs and still couldnt stay sober.
I thought i was lost and was never going to recover. I don't get to meetings like i should and i need others like me to talk to. I've finally made it six months sober and i finally love life. don't get me wrong shit still hits the fan but i can deal with it now and i don't have to numb out. I'm not going to lie i love the way a drink or two can make me feel but i cant have just one. If it's there its mine for the taking and i will drink it all. At the end of my drinking career i would drink until i passed out, get up the next morning pray to god to help me and find a bottle to drown my sorrows in. the only thing that i did not realize is i was the one that had to change. i had to change the people i associated with. The places i went and the habits i had. The thing that keeps me sober today is antabuse. I know it sounds like a cop out but i couldn't stay sober any other way. It's just a reminder to me that i cant drink. but don't get me wrong i was one of the ones that tried. not a very good idea. you will get sicker than a dog in ways you never thought you could.
I know we can all succeed if we stick together.
PLEASE REACH OUT TO ME FOR HELP. THAT'S WHY I JOINED THIS SITE.
I NEED ALL OF YOU AS MUCH AS YOU NEED ME.
I LOVE SHARING MY STORIES AND SORROWS WITH ANOTHER ADDICT OR ALCOHOLIC. YOU PEOPLE ARE THE ONLY ONES THAT CAN RELATE TO THE CHAOS THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH AND NOT BE JUDGMENTAL TOWARDS ME.AS I WILL NEVER JUDGE ANY OF YOU WITH THINGS THAT SHARED WITH ME. PLEASE REACH OUT TO A LOVING HAND I KNOW I WILL.
LOVE HEATHER

Hello Group. I am Josh. I am an addict to cocaine, crack cocaine, heroine, and pretty much anything else that is put in front of me. I went to state jail when I was 20 years old. I spent my 21st birthday in jail. I am now 29 years old. I met up with a guy that I was locked up with afterward and he introduced me to crack. I had some control over while he was more addicted than I at first. Ever since then (1999), I have lied, cheated, stolen, committed fraud, and anything you could think of to feed my habit. I am powerless. I could be clean for eight months and then, bam! Personally I really need to relate with someone about my addiction and I know they are out there.

Please give me advice and help. Praying only gets me so far these days and I'm tired of living my life this way. I think this group could be much more active than it is if we commit to it. Please help.

Josh

Hey I am Jackson.I am suffering from alcohol issues. I am really 14 (I had 2 use a fake year) and I live in London. I was kicked out of my mothers house at 11 when I didn't want 2 follow her religion. I had no where to go. So I stayed at my coach's house. I stayed there for a year until the wife found beer and pot in my backpack. I was kicked out again onto the streets. 2 other kids that night found me so we drank( Bad bad thing to do when the cops are around the block)but the cops had us in jail that hour. They called my coach to come pick me up(Ya they where happy that I was drunk)They let me back but had to be drug tested every 2 days. I stayed clean for a year until the son, Conor had some problem with me so I just left. I had no money so i begged for food. Until one day I walk into the store to buy water when I was only a pound away from it. Who was behind me... Sara and Conor.They lent me the money and they didn't know who I was until they heard me say Thank you. Conor said sorry so did I. Now again I was home. Now I was 13. I was I good year for me in a way. But like before.... Sara had my drug tested at the hospital came back NO,but the Alcohol came back YES. Great right they put me in a Rehab with I am here now. I hated religion until now I learned I need it. I don't know what it is but thats why i am here.

Hello everyone out there... My name Annie. I was addicted to perscription meds.I started using when I was 14 for Migraines and now after have still the migraines and cronic pain in my leg and lower back and Fibromyalga I will be 40 this year and they just put me on MS Contin (Morphine 12 release) with Morphine pills to take for break through pain. I was told by a really good friend that I was way out of control in 2005 that I should just start going to an Addicts self-help. I just am not sure if I can say the name. (it comes with a big blue book and talks about 1 pill is way to much and 1,000 is never enough.) Thank God I listened and shared and relapsed a lot but finally I am going on my 5th year clean and sober. Yes I have to take meds. I am also a Bipolar Plus, Still have the migraines, cronic back pain. What I have learned is that I need help with my mother giving me my meds for everything, but I am no longer getting high off of them like I did from 14 to 35 years old. It was the hardest struggle I have ever had to do. When I feel like getting loaded, I tell my mother (she is also like my best friend) She trust me but I really need to tell someone like my mom when I really want to just check out and go numb. To me that is the best feeling in the world. I have to be responsable for my life now. I have bills to pay. When I was high, I just throu my bills away, if I had checks in my purse, I thought that I had $$$ in my accout. I hated myself way back then. Today I honor, love and respect myself.I still take one day at a time. My family doesn't want me going to any meetings because I would probably end up using with someone there. Well I am Annie and that is a little about me.