The heartache works like a muscle memories.  The feeling of that pain keeps comming back even though the aching is not as much as it was like before but I still can feel IT.  Fortunately, as time went by, that memory of the pain is getting lighter even though I've tried hard to forget.  I usually can ignore or detour the painful memory easily, but tonight, it seems that dragged me down to that memory lane.  There were number of reasons for that memory relive in me lately.  One of the reason was because I went back to work.  Secondly, everyday driving by the place that we met for the first time reminded me of that painful past.  I wish I never met you, but then I would never know what the feeling of falling in love with a foreingner.  It is an awful painful memory of my life but that was the consequences that I had faced to fall in love with an outsider.