IT's Sept 1st,Nice people have invited me for groups and such.IT's nice to be accepted for who I am.I'm struggling with anxiety and panic issues and being overwhemed.Even being in a group seems like a lot to know.A few weeks ago,it wouldn't be like that.I need to find my faith again and aaaalso in myself.It's like night in my soul sometimes.I have faith in Green Tara,that she will heal me.

 

 

ITs JUly 21st see myspace.com/23rdworld for my blog since last i wrote.I still have a thyriod problem,and am dealing with bi-polar.I'm not giving up!!!!

 

 

its april 28th and after a lifetime of doing good-im done beliving  in anything-im tired of being told to take drugs--im crazy all my good didnt mean much to me---in the end-all my prayers  were mostly for others-and now im tired,my personalitys have split so many tiimes-i cant count.I'm a age i wont tell-im going to be a hermit.and only talk to those few-who stayed in touch.I'm staying on whatever meds-they will put me on.And live out my life online--helping to find missing kids and such.I'm poor & forgotten,and id rather keep it that way.People pretend to be your friend,when you have money,or something they want.i dont have anything,so thats the way it will stay.My talent will be givin to my friends,let them make money or  fame from the songsetc. i see how phony people really are,im dying here---and not one-offered a crumb.so good luck im done here-have a nice life.

Well sure is a deep subject!!~~ha ha. Ive been on my own road-with God & the angels,my whole life.The churches & temples,meant well,some tried to help me,most didnt understand me.My message was always simple.Do unto others,like u want done.Dont do to others,like U dont.Yes there are real angels & things U cant see-if an angel statue moves,by itself,call it a real sign,that God-Hashem-Allah-Buddha---is blessing you,and showing U that the unseen is as real,as we are-tho much more wise & powerful.people pray to seek help,and see signs & wonders,then they do--and some accept this,for what it REAlly is.Others doubt-its not different-now then in any other time on earth.How many times,can you ask to see a sign---keep seeing them----and still play pretend?IF you are blessed enuf to see a sign-follow the "bread crumb trail"It means it have lived before,for some,for most they are being given a last chance to do the right things,by having hope & helping others,as best they can.If you can feed a hungry person,with only doing it,cause it IS the right thing-thats your choice.Dont do it,to show others,how "good" you are,as the Bible said-"if you do a good deed,do it in "your closet"-meaning dont run & tell the first person,look at me--im so damn holy.Thats not what heaven wants-instead,say I saw need,now will you also help? Dont spoil a good thing,by making your motorvation,an ego trip.OR making someone who does good,feel stupid.I've experianced--that and more.Its a very creepy feeling,to KNOW your DOING Gods-etc-will,and have evil-selfish,people put u down,for your faith,and connection-to a higher being.I've left my body-many many times,wanting to return back to heaven,because people have played me,deserted me--left me for dead,yet spoke of how much love,they had for me.Ive seen my own kids,kick me to the curb,over & over again-as well as a woman,I was the best of friends with,for 30 years.All seeking money,money I could have made-time & again,for my talents-my singing,comedy,writings,knowledge-ect,but they also didnt give me the time,of day to do these things.They were more interested,in themselfs-and what I could give,on a daily basis.Well I gave till i was left,with a 600 buck check-broke down,from all their so called love.Forced to take meds,I never needed-and at the end of my life,at 53-when I needed them most--all of them,wanted this puny check,and not me.I became a guiding star-on myspace,5000 views on my blog,strangers,posting comments,and writing me-begging me to live,and these--so called strangers,became my REAL family.Sadly last week,i deleted that page---because you see,when the fame & fortune--God had promised me,at the so called end of my life,was there waiting---my kids both turned on me--one came bringing a nice expensive bracelet-and dutch brothers coffee,that I couldnt afford-and posted the only mean comments-along with her cheating husband-and broke me down,in ways i cant explain,at this moment.She cried about her love,and her concern,yet I was on the myspace page,she made for me,and never sent a message,to tell me she cared.OR an offer of one dollar,as i lived homeless last summer,and she was 20 minutes away.I lost weight,and pushed to find a way out,to move somewheres else.My other kid,moved into the motel,lane county mental health,paid for,with her son,that has aspergers,she begged me to let a stranger with a sick 3 year old-move in.I felt bad for a sweet little boy,with a heart condition,and didnt want to see him,sleep in a cold car.WE got a ratty apt-the shower dont work well,it burns or freezes me,its for the poor.I pay 400 bucks a month,and live on 200.and the child is now with the mother,yet the man never left,or paid me except one dollar.And ive been in this bed,hungry most of the time,now she feeds me,when she can,on meds,and drinking beer & wine,and wont do a damn thing,to make her life better.And expects me to stay,and pay the rent forever.she dont have a clue,how important i have become,she wants what her sister wants,for me to end up in a wheelchair,and pay her rent.My teeth hurt,because the welfare system,dont think im worth enuf,to fix my teeth,they think i should have dentures,but my teeth just need care,if i was rich,id have nice teeth.A homeless dog,eats what it can,and keeps its broken teeth,and hides all day,and roams at night.Thats in essence---what this human has become,told to take whatever it gets.I dont buy it-never did.Never will,i'm tough as nails,and dont depend on people much,why should i? If good people come my way,and offer a way or an open door,I'll do my i CHING,AND TEST THE WATERS.or i'll just get well,and take what i can carry,maybe take a bus to New orleans,help rebuild that city,or get a trailer in the woods,get a dog without a home,and a cat,and keep working online.or maybe theres another plan,that i dont even know-waiting in the wings of heaven.Some want me to die,or be drugged,because i believe im incarnated-and know in part-my story.For now my tooth hurts,and this room is my prison,no different-then ST Paul,the years have gone by--but the story remains the same--as led zep-wrote,People like john lennon-were killed for saying the same things---that we can live in peace,the battle of good & evil is still going on.The people of tibet,are crying for mercy-and children in Dafur still eat ants--while the rich ignore this fact.Many do try-but the need is so damn great,wheres the mercy for those who pray-but get no help? I curse & will continue to until the day the evil is stopped,some call me a radical-well they called Lord jesus one too! and many others-who followed this way.and some would seek to put a bullit in my head--also for my way-i'm not afraid to die-for the cause of peace & to help humanity.In 3 years,the mayan calender will end-i will be 57,and if I'm still alive---because of God Buddha----well so be it.Peoples way of looking at the world will change for the better,they wont be caught,in the traps they are now,and if im meant to see it-I will and if not--u will know why.luv to all---me

 

 

 

 

 

-Thanks 4 friendship------going to be gone for very long awhile.Bless u all- its been fun---luv-me

 

 

I'm just a gal-from Brooklyn-who didnt even know about Buddhism-until last year---was a Catholic-Jewish-Witch,psychic-a follower Of Our Lady Of Fatima--and other good souls MLK-Helen Keller-Anne Frank-etc-I saw a leaked document-from a Hitler-like meeting-that showed that China wants to kill all followers OF HH and people who belive in Falun Gong-Catholic-anyone who has faith in anything beyond----what the G-Dless minds of the CHinese leaders think-I'ts very overwhelming to me-knowing what i'm saying is all true---im praying for people---to stand up-for human rights---spent 8 months bedrest---working on myspace---helping these things---be well.-me

 

Green Tara-saved my life- and supernatural things-have gone on----my whole life-Now I know the other angels-I've spoken to my whole 53 years-are also Buddhist-----peace-out---much love to all----SHAKIJNANAKRIYA

 

 

 

 

 

HI all,have been,having a rough time,taking care of my deppresstion.I also get about 400 hits,on myspace blog a wek! So also been buzy,when not ready to checkout of this life.Am working to repair it.

someday i want-a better world-

where people don't judge others----for color or choice of faith-

things that should be respected-

an online hippy store---on ebay,to sell neat things,fromNepal & India.With over 40 years,experiance,doing the tarot & other oracles- free 4 family & friends.

I just want to see the return of HH The Dalai Lama-

to his rightful home----of Tibet-

I fight the good fight---against the properganda of KINg HU-and his band of Hitlers---

With all i've experianced---on spiritual levals--and doing TUkun Olam- which in Hebrew ---means repairing the world----I have been told,many times,I could teach a class on comparitive religions-

at the university level.

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I am disabled,and have been abused,because of it.So had to get smart & strong,even tho

have been,on 8 months of bed-rest.My key-board is always moving me,in the right direction.

In time will sell my art,that im creatingand other things----so can support myself.

And leave the poverty,I had forced,on me behind.

Thax so much,for caring,if I lived or died.

It really can make a big difference,to someone,who has survived a disaster.

BLESS YOU ALL----love me

willget back,to all asap.im still,weak & shaky,fromallI lived through,last year

Time is always,the best donation!

3-31-08 finally made it back here-up-dated my info.most of my time-im working too hard-trying to make peace in the world-----that isnt ready for it- fighting a battle of good vs evil-----Good will win--the Mayan calender ends dec-21-2012--by then things will hopefull get better.for now i'm here---looking to heal myself-still like a wounded animal inside-but looking for the love that lives in us--the divinity we all were born with--yet many dont want to make that flame of good grow--so its our job to help water the earth----with our love-prayers-actions-words-and make a garden grow---out of our hearts---luvto all very weak-shalom-chow-much metta---loving kindness-----******()))((()()()(

 

 

 

 

Everything happens for a reason, even if we can't understand it. I connect with what I feel in my soul. I believe there is more than just one path or truth. We should always keep searching, learning and growing. we should do good in this world,so the light can help many! We have the light inside if we will only heed it."

A journey of 1,000 miles begins with one step"-Lao Tzu MAKE GOOD KARMA FOR ALL!

I'm a grandma-for for peace!

 

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hi am not getting better-dont have much strenth to write anymore.dont know what my karma is...did my best to be a good soul in this world.
my medical care-sucks-
this country dont care about the health of poor folks like me-
tried to change-all the bad things about this world-in my own way.
Was called stupid,wastefull,dumb,a loser-retarded-
for being this way.
I have prayed-did magick-mant things-
nothing changed the cruelty-towards me,from folks-
I loved over all my 52 years-on this planet.
I'm burntout-tired-sick weak-
cant eat-or sleep-
yet cant get out of bed-
day after day-
maybe the others were right-
i must be a myrter-
all I gave to everyone wasnt good enuf-
I was fine this summer-
was playing guitar-and working on astro-
dance moves.
people were amazed-
that I was so good-
they encouraged me-to follow my dreams...
being homeless-3 months,
and running out of my medication-
drained my life force-
Plan & simple-
I was looking forward to starting a new life-
this year.
Getting back in touch with memebers of my family-
and friends.
I was ashamed to tell them how bad my life was
because of how others,choose to treat me.
I have forgiven em-
so many times.
32 years of misery-
has taken its toll on me-
besides-the years before that-
my life has been a living hell,on earth.
maybe the angels-buddhas-all I have tried to help & pray to,
they might think I have had enuf too-
so in truth-
its all in the universes hands-
like I have always belived-
since I was 3.
whatevers meant to happen will-
I give up y'all-
im too tired to care anymore-
im thankful for what my life has been,
dispite all the shit-
there was a lot of good...
so dont lose hope-
try to learn how to help others-
at least you will know-
your life mattered.
I love you all-
am hoping to be able to keep my promises
of the prayers-I said I would pray.
And so I cant write much-
it takes too much energy-
if im okay-
will let u all know-
if not-
let this page be a living monument-
to what I tried to do with my shitty little life.
peace-love-live long & prosper-y'all
take care of each other-
cause love is all that really matters....
"And in the end-
the love you take-
is equal-to the love you made."-The Beatles
words to live by....River
hope i will be back....

 

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