I am here because I need spirtual support I am not dealing very well with the loss of my son and I cant afford therapy. I was browsing forums and saw one on grief and loss of someone is what brought me here. I am 29 years of age have a beautiful almost 18 month old son and a wonderful boyfriend who has stood by me these last two months. I lost my oldest son on Janurary 9, 2008 his name is Micah he was only 3 years of age. He passed away by basicly choking on vomit he had sucked into his lungs. He was in bed for the night and when my boyfriend went in to check on the boys and give the baby a tippy cup he found Micah. We tried to save him my son died in my arms four times before he finally passed on to be with the lord. I am thankful for being able to have the time with him. I do believe everything happens for a reason and the lord brings people into our life because we need them and takes them away when it is time. I am blessed to still have a son and what is funny I almost lost micah two other times before this once at birth and they took him before he passed and then at his kidney surgeries but what makes me the most blessed and assured me of a lord above and that all this was ment to be is the fact that about two months after my sons surgery at one I became pregnant with my second son when I shouldnt have. They are identical twins 1 1/2 years apart it is very scary at times. I know the lord took hiim cause it was his time and needed an angel but even with that knowledge I still hurt deeply I still have days when I ask why I think about him always and it is affecting me and my life and I know time heals and all that but I dont know not sure what I am looking for someone to talk with me help me here how other parents handled this. I am so confussed at hurt so much it is hurting my family and that is what I dont want.

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