I have joined this community because I have been losing faith in love, life and even God over the past couple months.  My husband has been deployed to Iraq for over 3 yrs out of the last 5 and it has started to take a toll on our marriage.  He was fine up until a very bad incident happened in Baghdad and then for the last 2 months of his deployment, he was mean, cold, emotionless, and still to this day, even though he came home a week ago, has not told me he loved me.  The last time he told me he loved me was back in Feb.  Then on Easter, he told me over the phone that he loves me but he isn't in love with me.  He has talked about divorce and whatnot.  We have been married for nearly 10 years.  I love him with all my heart and soul.  I keep telling myself that he really does love me and his head just got really messed up over there from the aformentioned incident in Baghdad, but I am starting to not believe anything anymore.  He confuses me. I think that he has PTSD, because I have it myself, and he won't get help because he said it would effect his military career negatively and he would not see any more promotions.  He brought a Quran home and he is a Christian. He has talked about becoming a Muslim.  How could a Christian even contemplate that? (no disrespect to Muslims)  I pray that God takes hold of his heart once again and shows him how to love and shows him the light, and what is important in his life before he loses it all.  I have been losing my mind.  He's home and we are just acting like everthing is okay, but he still has not said he loves me, not even on Mother's day.  He has not kissed me for real on the lips.  He just wants me to kiss him on the cheek.  We have a 9 year old daughter and whether he believes it or not, she is smart and sees all this and is depressed about how he is treating me and insecure in what is going to happen between me and her dad.  She loves us both.  I don't know what else to say right now.  Please pray for me and Jeff everyone.  That's what we need.  I believe in the power of prayer and he needs to be reeled back in to reality and needs to get out of his war frame of mind. Being emotionless in war can be a matter of life or death, but here at home, it is killing our marriage.

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