I am a mom of three. My oldest son just passed away on Dec.8th 2008.
I haven't been able to deal with him being gone very good. I'm constantly depressed,
I cry all the time. I can't understand why this happened. i WISH THERE WAS SOMEWAY FOR ME TO KNOW HE'S AROUND ME! I KNOW HE'S IN A BETTER PLACE. I KNOW I NEED TO STAY STRONG FOR MY OTHER CHILDREN, BUT I FEEL SO LOST. I HAVE SO MANY UNANSWERED QUESTIONS..ONE THAT IS REALLY HARD ON ME IS, wAS HE SCARED BEFORE HE HIT THE GROUND? 2)DID HE HURT AT ALL? 3) DID HE KNOW I WAS WITH HIM THOSE LAST DAYS & DID HE HEAR ME OR FEEL MY KISSES? 4) DID HE KNOW HOW MUCH I MISSED HIM & LOVED HIM? i KEEP WAITING FOR HIM TO COME TO ME IN MY DREAMS OR EVEN IN MY DAYS.BUT HE DOESN'T! I'VE BEEN VISTED BT SPIRTS I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW, BUT MY SON DOESN'T COME TO ME...WHY?