For the past 2-years my husband has been in poor health. He has suffered Kidney failure and heart-failure. Now he is on dialysis and has a de-fibulator in his chest for his heart. I have an 8-year-old adopted son and I work full time to pay our bills. My husband has come home from the nursing home and has been on a downward spiral every since. He refuses to stop drinking his beer and it is taken a toll on him. He refuses to let me take him to a doctor now that he is losing his motor functions and is dropping everything he picks up and is still trying to smoke in bed. All my sheets have holes in them from him dropping his smokes. When I try to intervene he won't let me but he rather I take care of him at home. I am so tired and scared. Each day I wonder if I going to find him passed away when I get home. He won't answer the phone or he can't answer the phone so I rush home 20-miles to see if he's okay only to find him lying in the bed without eating anything. It's so bad. My son doesn't understand what's going on so he is depressed. I can't tell you how sad I am. I am doing a short sale on my home because I can't keep up the bills and I have no one who comes to help me, no one who comes to see my husband, I feel like I being pun shined for something I did wrong. I need help but do not know where and how to get it. He doesn't think he needs any help. I think he is trying to deny that he is really that ill and really needs to be in a nursing home where he could get the help he needs. I can't be there all day if I don't work we don't eat or the bills that we do have will not get paid.
This is what my life is like on a daily basis. I feel my husband is being very selfish by wanting me to be his only care giver.