Odi et amo. Quare id facias fortasse requiris? Nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior. (C. Valerius Catullus)
That sums up my relationship to the Jewish community -- actually, my entire life.
But life is just a cabaret, old chum, so one mustn't take things too seriously. Yet that doesn't seem to stop me.
I'm 28, over-educated, under-paid, over-stressed -- but it's all worth it to help revitalize the infrastructure of Jewish life and engage the unaffiliated and marginalized. At least that's what I tell myself to get me through the day.