It is good to check back in with bnet after an absence of a few months.  There have been two unrelated events in my world recently that I would like to share ... firstly, a little girl of four years died after being thrown off a traffic bridge in my home town of Melbourne in Victoria, Australia.  After suffering a breakdown, her father drove her two younger brothers and herself onto the Westgate bridge, parked at the top, and in front of her two brothers, threw his daughter off the bridge.  She actually survived the fall but with such horrific injuries, died a short time later in hospital.  The public of Victoria mourned the loss of this innocent child, a stranger to most including myself.  The question on most peoples' minds was 'how could a father commit such a horrific crime on his own daughter?'.  This question will remain unanswered but our thoughts and prayers remain with a beautiful little girl who didn't deserve such a cruel death.  May the angels keep her in their arms as I'm sure they did at the time of her fall.

The second tragedy to impact and move me was the recent busfires in Victoria, my home state, which caused a huge amount of devastation and loss.  For those of us not directly affected by the tragedy like myself, we were moved to tears by the grief of people who had lost friends and family and all that they had.  May the Lord continue to watch over all those affected by the bushfires and continue to grant us courage and hope in the face of such disaster.

Thank you Lisa for your comment, I know Sean is with me always however it is hard to find the strength to carry on.  As we wrote in his notice, 'We know God needs angels and that's why he took you, but those of us he left behind, didn't he know we need you too?'.  It is a physical hurt, an ache that will not go away, to lose a child.  It upsets the normal order of things and is something that one thinks will never happen to you.  Do not stand at my grave and cry, I am not there, I did not die.