I haven't been on here in a very long time and I think I came back because I'm at that point where I need to just let my words out. I have been praying for 10 years and more and nothing have changed for me just more sadness. Not in a million years would I think I would turn out this way. Everyone has moved on and still moving forward and I'm stuck. I never ask to be this way never ask for any of this I never ask to be born. I'm not sure why I'm even here. People think medicine work all the time or money or family or going to get help professionally will help but it wont it never has and never will (talking about me no one else). Even if I had the things and people in mylife I want I will still feel this way.

People don't understand it is a illness (depression). Anxiety, social phobia selective mutism depression it is just there right along with other life issues and illnesses. 10 years gone 10 years wasted is how I feel everything is wrong and filling me up with medicine is just going to cover up what I feel instead of making it better and at the end when it all wears off it gets worse. Not sure of anything in my life all I know is that I'm tired of everything.