I'm a christian minister seeking Jesus, and trying to led others to Him. I am going through the most difficult phrase of my life, right now. My husband of 17 years is dying and I can't cry or seem upset or I'll cause him to lose hope. I was told that he should be happy and as comfortable as possible. Now comes the test of my faith. Where do I turn to, God always. I know that I have to keep everything inside for now. Just give it over to God to deal with, but it isn't easy. I know that God is always for me and that with Him I can do all things, but I wished it wasn't this. May God blessing be added unto each of you who stops and reads this. Know that God is in control and we are all human.