All is well. Peace lives within me.  I can't sleep AGAIN.  This is terrible.  when i was well i went to bed at ten pm.  now i sleep 3 hours a night because my mind races endlessly with a to do list.  a to do list for tomarrow, next week, next month, next year.  It never ends.

All is well. Peace lives within me. It's amazing what a huge impact a small thing can have. I cut my hair today. I would have never done it (no matter how much I wanted to) while I was with my ex-boyfriend. I thought because me liked my hair so much he would stop loving me if I cut it. I know that sounds crazy, but with love comes fear of loss. Well today I did it. I have a cute curly bob now and have not felt so empowered or in control since the break-up. So to all of you out there who take the time to read my posts, DO IT. That thing that you want to do but are holding back out of fear just go out there and do it. You'll be amazed how good you feel.

All is well. Peace lives within me.  I was in the hospital for 4 days due to a severe depressive episode.  While I was there I learned the best therapy in that situation is helping others.   Acts as simple as getting a lunch tray for someone in a wheel chair or giving someone an ear that will listen without judgmentgo so far.

All is well.   Peace lives within me.  It started off an excellent day and I intend  to continue it that way.  I lost a very important bracelet and was very upset then this morning I found it.  The beginning of my business is going swimmingly.  My ex sent me an email giving me closure.  I feel really good about everything.  I have made chanting beads and although I dont  use them as often as I should , but they help me remember I ghave a choice in how I react to situations.  I can chose peace, I can chose happiness.  My illness will still take over sometimes, but I am in intensive therapy and using my meds yo the best of my advantage.  Sendin love and peace to all.

All is well.  Peace resides within me.  I don't really sleep.  If I get up after 4:30 am and go to bed before 1:30 am it's a miracle.  I am staying with my mother due to unfortunate circumstances and her husband is on vacation.  It is a very small house, he is a light sleeper and I am severly hyperactive.  When I wake up I hit the ground running.  I'm ready to clean, exercise, run errands, whatever Keeps me busy.  I try so hard to be quiet.  It is the hardest thing in the world right now.  Please pray for me that I might have the strength not to run into this mans room and yell "WAKE UP so I can do stuff". 

Yeasterday I have a severe panic attack and nervous breakdown.  I am homeless and don't drive so I was feeling pretty hopeless.  I cut my arms and considered checking into the hospital.  Today I am moving my furniture from my now ex-boyfriends house to storage and for some reason that makes me feel empowered instead of depressed.  I am also starting my own business.  So even though its raining outside I fell like its all blue skies and rainbows.  I understand the extremeness of my happiness is part of the bipolar but I'll take it over the down times any day.

I'm out of the hospital.  i dont think i should be.  I just want to see my son.  He is the only thing keeping me from cutting my wrists deeper.