All is well. Peace lives within me. I can't sleep AGAIN. This is terrible. when i was well i went to bed at ten pm. now i sleep 3 hours a night because my mind races endlessly with a to do list. a to do list for tomarrow, next week, next month, next year. It never ends.
All is well. Peace lives within me. I was in the hospital for 4 days due to a severe depressive episode. While I was there I learned the best therapy in that situation is helping others. Acts as simple as getting a lunch tray for someone in a wheel chair or giving someone an ear that will listen without judgmentgo so far.
All is well. Peace lives within me. It started off an excellent day and I intend to continue it that way. I lost a very important bracelet and was very upset then this morning I found it. The beginning of my business is going swimmingly. My ex sent me an email giving me closure. I feel really good about everything. I have made chanting beads and although I dont use them as often as I should , but they help me remember I ghave a choice in how I react to situations. I can chose peace, I can chose happiness. My illness will still take over sometimes, but I am in intensive therapy and using my meds yo the best of my advantage. Sendin love and peace to all.
All is well. Peace resides within me. I don't really sleep. If I get up after 4:30 am and go to bed before 1:30 am it's a miracle. I am staying with my mother due to unfortunate circumstances and her husband is on vacation. It is a very small house, he is a light sleeper and I am severly hyperactive. When I wake up I hit the ground running. I'm ready to clean, exercise, run errands, whatever Keeps me busy. I try so hard to be quiet. It is the hardest thing in the world right now. Please pray for me that I might have the strength not to run into this mans room and yell "WAKE UP so I can do stuff".
Yeasterday I have a severe panic attack and nervous breakdown. I am homeless and don't drive so I was feeling pretty hopeless. I cut my arms and considered checking into the hospital. Today I am moving my furniture from my now ex-boyfriends house to storage and for some reason that makes me feel empowered instead of depressed. I am also starting my own business. So even though its raining outside I fell like its all blue skies and rainbows. I understand the extremeness of my happiness is part of the bipolar but I'll take it over the down times any day.
I'm out of the hospital. i dont think i should be. I just want to see my son. He is the only thing keeping me from cutting my wrists deeper.