After several weeks and two rejections from my insurance company, I decided to forego the neurotransmitter. I believe the denials happened for a reason. I am looking at more natural means rather than such invasive interventions to cope with pain.First of all, I am at the point where I can only give my pain to God. I just need to stop focusing on the pain and live my life as it comes,doing what I am able to do to help myself along the way. God will take care of the big picture and help me through the daily scenes. I can ask for no more and expect any less from Him.Praying is helping and now asking others to pray for me is a must. While I have not always felt comfortable asking(thinking others' lives were more pain-filled and they more wworthy of others' prayers),I did not ask. I am past that point;everyone deserves and needs prayers. I open my heart for a new day tomorrow.