As a pro-lifer, I found my conversation with a pregnant pro-choicer, rather disturbing.
I do remember a time, when being pro-choice was something I could see for others, but never for myself. And once felt life within me, my position on the subject was strongly confirmed. I now know, that Christs life in us, is very similar in its nature. In that, Christ's Consciousness brings to LIFE, the living experience of conception of the Love of God.. within ones mind and heart. This experience, also produces a sacred result..the awakened birth of ones Soul.
But as I spoke to this newly pregnant woman of two, I found it hard to understand, how she could retain her abortion stance? Before speaking to her, I would have bet , every woman who bore a child, would have felt the same as I had. I would never have thought, experiencing the miracle of life, would not change a womans opinion, to her bodys purpose and its reality?
Yet, while this woman held strongly to her opinion regarding abortion, the thought of "worship without sacrifice" came to mind. I know, where does that fit into this conversation, well let me tell you what it is I see...
The intellectual mind, deals with choices, and for the most part, most opinions are formed, OUTSIDE OF SELF! Much like most people who have yet to have children, know exactly how they would raise them. Thats until they have them..then those wonderful opinions tend to leave the play-pen, as the reality sets in. Its like we know what we think we know, until we really know it. We believe, what we believe we believe, until life proves it to be our truth, or it doesnt. And all along, I thought experience was indeed the best teacher. It is, if we take our experiences within.
But there are many of us, who dont. Instead, they leave feelings surpressed, for sake of the intellect. It used to be said, the mind is the slayer of the real..Meaning , feelings are who we are. And those who use their intellect, to surpress the idea that they feel, are WORSHIPING without SACRIFICE. They leave all assessment and or responsibility "OUTSIDE OF SELF"?
Its the man who can never understand his wife. Because he thinks, and she feels. We are supposed to combine the two. Not separate them as if they cant get along. When we discount feelings for knowledges sake, is when we miss the very thing we will have to sacrifice..down the line.
We can be very intellectually sound, and offer sage advice, when a serious problem is presented...as long as we keep it outside of ourselves. A person can tell us how they feel about a matter concerning them, and we can leave it out there..or we can take it home to, " how would I feel if that was happening to me"?
I was indeed surprised by the clincal response, of that young woman, who was carrying life as she spoke matter a fact, regarding abortion. But then I realized, she never took her pro-choice position home. She was telling me her opinion..as if it lived outside of the life, she was carrying within. I guess, because I believe everything we live, is how we feel within. That Christs words of where His Kingdon IS..was true...that I took all that I experienced Home.
She was able to keep that opinion, and her pregnancy OUTSIDE HERSELF. I guess I could not. I knew from the first moment of conception. I went to a doctor for his confirmation of what I already knew. I knew from that moment, my child would be a very strong part of my Soul. So strong was that awareness, that even voicing the word abortion, would have damaged the innocence of my child, as well as Christ, within my Soul.
I had taken the life within me, seriously. As I did, all along, when it came to Christs life WITHIN MY HEART. Maybe that is indeed the difference. We can speak about things, as if they live outside of who we are, or we can not. I tend to bring all that I feel, HOME. I tend to believe my Heart is where He Lives.
Therefore, I know we cant give anything away, we dont yet have. We cant feel the seriousness of abortion, as long as we keep it as a thought..a thought that lives outside of who we are, and how we feel. Then we make what are only opinions, become truths. We can remain detached from how we feel. But we cant do that, when LIFE ITSELF, is ALIVE IN US. We then are faced with WORSHIP..that requires more than just belief.
Can we truly WORSHIP LIFE, if we say we can dispose of it at will? We certanly could do that, if that LIFE REMAINED OUTSIDE OF SELF. But once we bring Christs LIFE, into our BEING...how could we ever say Life itself, is disposable? Once Christ is our Life, we then LIVE, LOVE, THINK and WORSHIP..HIS LIFE IN US..AS OURSELF.
"I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world". ~ Mere Christianity
"If we were immortal and lived in unending bodily pleasure, with no fear of losing it, why should we not be happy? What else should we be seeking for? I did not realize that that is exactly what shows our great wretchedness. For I was so submerged and blinded , that I could not think of the light of MORAL GOODNESS, and of A BEAUTY to be EMBRACED for its OWN SAKE...beauty seen not by the eye of the flesh, but only by inward discernment"... St Augustine Confessions
My Soul belongs to Christ...His love never hurts or harms another.
He gave His Life, in our Name.
He is the missing piece we all search for..outside ourselves..when we seek love.
Once found, all who love Him will share His same Heart.
All who love Him, will never hurt those they love. They will never take pleasure in anothers pain.
They will be more aware of loving others, even better than they love themselves.
All who love Him will respect the lives of those who dont live in Him. They will make up for those lost, by making themselves more Christlike.
They will no longer have egos, that believe they teach others, they will be so focused on living a better life in Christ, themselves. They will be the living examples of His Word, more they just speaking to others, His words.
Those whose Soul belongs to Christ, will see that their words, match thier deeds.
Glorifing God will be in how they live thier lives, and how they treat others.
Every trial suffered, will be so that we may draw closer to GOD in our understanding. It is for our need, not His. It is how ones ego submits, to the will of God. It is how man learns that all he has, was given him, and not by his work alone!
Our Soul records all the Good in our lives, for our Soul is the Living Christ. It makes us aware, that all the good in our lives, is of God.
Our Souls love is serious. It never accepts or recieves love, as if its coming to it.And because no love is taken for granted, all love given, is filled with gratefulness and respect. We must acknowledge it is Christs Love, that lives within us..therefore our Love for Him or others, need to be seriously respected. As His Life was taken, in the seriousness of His sacrifice. In His True Love, for US.
God got a call from a young man who asked, "God, why do women cry , so easily?" God said: "When I made the woman ... I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure , and the rejection that many times comes, from her children.
I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her , very badly.
I gave her strength to carry her man through his faults, and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good man never hurts his woman, but sometimes tests her strengths, and resolve... to stand beside him unfaltering. And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively, to use whenever it is needed." "You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman is seen, in her eyes. They are the doorway to the heart..the pathway to your soul - the place where true love, resides. These are the elements that live in your SOUL..
Her love lives in Christs TRUTH, it is His strength she had as the model of her own.
And as the world spins its webs, and people choose sides, at times by denegrating " "the other", so as to feel they are right. I chose Christ.
As pundits pick partisan political polls to prove how smart, they believe themselves to be.
I choose the only direction that gives me life. I choose Christ.
As debates become all thats talked about, as if our world depends on little more. I choose to talk about Christ. For I know full well, the world without Him, is truly a dismal place.
When pills no longer help us with the bodys pain. I choose Christ.
As the world continues to divide itself, in terms of who will win the earth. As fires rage in the Middle East, choose Christ.
I choose Heaven.
As people believe nothing is so important, that would make them feel the need to change. No urging of God. That would allow them to look and evaluate, if their words match their deeds. I choose Christ. For Christs is mans Ultimate Truth..For He was God made man..so men could see.. that they too could make their words match their deeds. Its because of His truth in us...I choose Him as my own.
With Christ, there is never any confusion. For He is clarity of mind, and heart.
He gives us answers , if we are looking in the right place, and for the right purpose.
If we could remember, both fear, and lack, belong soley to the body...
If we could remember that alone, it will help give us the clarity of thought we need, to end all confusion.
It is in those moments of emptiness, be it from a feeling that says we lack love, or a fear of not having enough. It is Christ alone , who hears those calls of emptiness.
If we truly believe it is He, and He alone, who is our fulfillment. No matter how many others we have, who can give us love. For His purpose is the Love we seek.
Our emptiness is our search for His Love. Only when we remember, we are alwasy looking for love, in all the wrong places. That those places are only temporary, They are moments of satisfaction. And no matter how much love we crave from those around us. Or how much love we expect to receive from a spouses,a friends or even a child... They can never completely fill, what Christ fills, when that void we seek from our Soul , is filled with His Love.
I could never accept that a God who created all things, and who has told us He loves us all equally, could segragate a certain group of His own children
Love doesnt do that, and Christs love wouldnt allow that.
However, yesterday, I read somehthing that brought more insight to this subject.
For those of us who believe our belief and knowledge of Christ constitues His Body. We then have to understand that bodys sacredness.
Christ in forgiving the prostitute while telling her she was forgiven, but go sin no more, didnt only apply to her selling of her body, but her misuse of it, as the temple of the Lord.
Catholic priests and many other religious orders, require abstainence or chasitity as a Godly requirement , in reaching for the higher elements or virtues of God.
When it comes to sex..God has made it not soley for mans pleasure, He made it pleasurable for a reason. Sex's purpose (in God) is for procreation..and little more.
God's lowest outpost in man, is sex. Love of God is His highest requirement, and with that as ones focus, so too comes certain restrictions and requirements.
Sex is the bodies pleasure. As is food. Food however can also become a lustful pleasure if not tempered. Because the body itself, has its needs separate from Gods.
So when we think of the Body of Christ..we must also think of Gods needs, as our highest expression, and mans needs (although given to us by God ) much of it for our survival nature on earth.
The reason God asks any man who seeks to elevate his survival nature to the higher virtues of God..has to see God in every aspect of his life. And here is what I came to realize when it comes to prostitution or homosexuality. Both of these needs cant continue to take priority, when it comes to a man who houses God. Infact , this also applies to a man or woman who has decided that God is their purpose in totem.
We cant house Christ without being chaste, without being celibate. It is for this reason, priest nuns, devotees in all religions , leave sex behind to serve God.. Sexual love, draws our energy down. When we choose Christ as our focused Love.. our love needs a higher calling. It no longer will be satisfied by a temporary high. Our body , mind, heart and spirit needs to have no split in its devotion. We can not place Christ, in arenas where He doesnt belong. His Body is now ours, and we must know, that if Christ were living within us..what within us, wouldnt be satisfied by Him, alone?
Virtue ethics, describes the character of a moral agent as a driving force for ethical behavior.This behavior emminates from a duty, a willing obligation to respond to, mans highest good, God.
These Virtues are everylasting, they dont change depending on circumstances, nor upon what man gains from them. They arent a matter of doing, but of being. They are who the man becomes , when he forgoes his egoic need, and submits himself to the likeness, and spirit of his God.
Forgive me God, for I so easily allow the earth to take me away from you.
I see the world as it is, and as I want it to be.
I forget all that is Good is alive in your Hand. That when my focus goes to what isnt, its than, that my focus isnt on You.
I constantly get drawn towards where you are not. What is it in me, that seeks to heal, and in doing so, loses sight of You the Good, that is my God?
I seem to want the world to be a better place, yet I somehow know it will never really be.For the world is the place where humanitys problems exist. Where memories are short, and grievences long. Where You God, get found, get expressed, in moments rather than in the journey of the life of the world.
I seek a better place. A place I once knew. A place where my eyes reflected only your light..
Where your good, lites the light in the hearts of good men. Where your word rings true in the heart, and enlightens the head. A place where all I can see , is your good. I long for that place.. That place within me, where your presence makes everything holy and sacred. The place where everyman is good, and perfect and pure. Where humanity is seen through the the Love Light in your Eyes.