I believe in God, I do not always live the way I should but I know that God still loves me! I have a very hard time trusting and having faith in myself it interferes with all my relationships especially with God. I try very hard to CONVINCE myself I have faith but I have alot of doubt and insecurities. I am here for advice on my marriage and myself, I have self-destructed myself for 40 years and I want to change. I have given it to God and taken it back so many times, I want peace! I am tired of hurting and now it has ruined my marriage. I pray I meet someone here that will understand what I am going through and give me some Godly advice in all areas of my life. I am at rock bottom there is only way up and I don't even know how to begin to get there.