Alway know that God loves you.I lost my Mom in 2007,and yet i am still longing for her.I dont thin that will ever end.But i do know that she is in a better place than some of us are right now.That gives me comfort.You are welcome to add me,and if i can do anything for you,even if it s just to talk,i am here.God Bless,peepi

Today is a bad day. It seems that everything is reminding me of my sister. Her birthday was last month and next month is the third birthday of her death. From songs that I hear on the radio to ads on the TV, all of it reminds me that she is gone and I am still here. I know I can't crawl into the grave with her. I've finally decided not to do that. But I don't know how to live without her by my side, encouraging me, urging me forward, upward, onward. I miss her so much. I know I will see her one day but that is not much comfort right now. I still feel as if my heart is ripped out of my chest and the hole isn't healing at all. Shouldn't the hole have healed some by now? I go through the motions of living but I haven't really enjoyed life since she died. I feel so much guilt that she died and I couldn't stop her from taking her life. I know she had it planned and didn't want to be stopped but surely I could have done something, anything more than what I did? My heart still feels like it's bleeding for her.