I Just thought better days ahead

    Saturday, May 17, 2008, 2:37 PM [General]

    Well it has been a long while since I have been here and I am sorry. I lost my Mother in February and just can't get it together. Four months after loosing my Granddaughter, I lose my Mother. Life SUCKS!!!
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    BETTER DAYS AHEAD

    Friday, December 14, 2007, 4:28 PM [General]

    Smile I HAVE BEEN WATCHING THE DVD OF BRAYLEE OVER AND OVER AGAIN. IT IS SUCH A GOOD PRESENT! I LOVE TO SEE THE SMILE ON HER FACE AND THOSE HUGE BLUE EYES. I KNOW I AM GOING TO BE OK. I AM STILL HAVING TROUBLE WITH MY FAITH, THAT SCARES ME! I NEED TO TALK TO MY PASTOR BUT HE HASN'T BEEN IN TOWN SO I WILL JUST HAVE TO WAIT. MORE LATER! 
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    First Christmas Present

    Wednesday, December 12, 2007, 10:16 AM [General]

    I got my first Christmas present yesterday in the mail. It was a DVD from my son and his wife. It was labeled Braylee Rayne Fox. I thought it was the memorial service, so I put off watching it. At about 11:00 last night I decided to watch it, and grabbed a bunch of tissue. Well it wasn't what I thought! Jen had taken video of Braylee while she was alive. Nobody knew so I got to see my precious Angel smiling and babbling. I did use the tissue, but they were happy tears! What a great present!! Merry Christmas to All!!
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    Another Hard One

    Tuesday, December 4, 2007, 11:20 PM [General]

    Cry Today was so hard. My youngest son took me to the mall today just to get me out of the house and we went to Bealls. I was walking through the store and came to the babies clothes, OMG I had to leave the store. I could think of how cute Braylee would look in some of the outfits and that I could get it for her for Christmas. I CAN'T! She is not here. At any rate I think I will stay away from the clothing section of all stores for a while. I thought I was doing better than things like that happen and you wonder if it is ever gonna get better? More tomorrow.
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    WHERE DOES THE TIME GO

    Saturday, December 1, 2007, 1:34 PM [General]

    This month is going to be a really hard one as we won't have our Beautiful Princess with us. We seem to all be doing better, Thank God!! I am still having trouble praying to God. I want to be able to without such confusion and hesitation. I am not quite understanding it myself as I have really never had trouble praying. I am not sure what it is. I guess I should talk with my Pastor about it. That is what I will do. More later. 
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    Better Day

    Tuesday, November 27, 2007, 12:21 AM [General]

    Today was a much better day. I am getting to feel more calm in my heart. I went to the Doc today and have a cold, got a shot and some antibiotics, so I guess I will live!! I finally got all Braylees pics in frames and put around the house. She belongs here right along side her Mommy, Daddy, and Brother. I wish everyone could have met her. She was an awesome little girl!!
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    I'm Stuffed LOL

    Friday, November 23, 2007, 1:49 PM [General]

    well today I got up with a new attitude, Thank God! I will not to cry anymore(well I am gonna try real hard)!! I read a post om my daughter-in laws site about how the Lord has it all planned an I had forgotten that. Silly huh?? I am gonna do some reading in my Bible today and find things I have been worried about and I know I will feel better. Love to all and God Bless
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    HAPPY THANKSGIVING

    Thursday, November 22, 2007, 2:17 PM [General]

    TODAY IS THANKSGIVING AND I DO HAVE A LOT TO BE THANKFUL FOR. I THANK GOD FOR GIVING UP HIS ONLY SON. I FEEL I HAVE BEEN SELFISH ABOUT CRYING FOR MYSELF OVER THE DEATH OF MY GRANDDAUGHTER, I AM SORRY! I AM THANKFUL FOR MY FAMILY AND FOR HAVING A ROOF OVER MY HEAD. I AM THANKFUL FOR MY CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN. I PRAY FOR ALL THOSE THAT DON'T HAVE THE THINGS THAT A LOT OF US HAVE. I SIT HERE LOOKING OUT THE WINDOW AS THE SNOW COMES DOWN THINKING OF THE POOR SOULS THAT DON'T HAVE SHELTER OR FOOD FOR THIS SPECIAL HOLIDAY. I PRAY FOR SHELTER FOR THEM AND FOOD TO FILL THEIR BELLIES. I SURELY PRAY FOR OUR SOLDIERS THAT ARE FIGHTING FOR OUR FREEDOM AND KEEPING US SAFE. THANKS TO ALL MY BNET FRIENDS WHO TRULY CARE. TODAY IS A BETTER DAY AND I AM THANKFUL

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    Another Day

    Sunday, November 18, 2007, 11:50 AM [General]

    Today started out pretty good then i saw a show on tv that had a baby die due to heart related condition. I cried again. I don't know if these tears will ever stop. I know Braylee is now happy, but I am not! I want to hold her and kiss her and tell her how much I love her. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. I know Bray doesn't want me to be unhappy, but right now I just can't seem to help it. More tomorrow.
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    I Cried Today

    Saturday, November 17, 2007, 1:37 PM [General]

    I cried today for myself. You see I can't cry for Braylee she has it all now. I cry for me because I am selfish and want her here with her Daddy and Mommy and Grandparents. I just wish I could understand?? I cry everyday! I ask God for strength to over come these feelings. I have such a hard time praying these days. I am weak in my Faith right now.Help Me God, PLEASE
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