The mind is a beautiful thing to have and terrible thing to
waste. Our conscious and sub conscious thoughts, Feelings, and memories from
birth till now are treasures buried inside and stories waiting to be told
waiting to be heard.  Throw your heart into
each and every moment become weak and vulnerable in each moment take it all in
breathe it all in and feel it all through your whole body. The weakness from vulnerability
has nothing to do with physical strength or endurance it takes a stronger
person to let go and feel good then it does walking around with armor and guards.
Most of what we love in life makes us weak and vulnerable and Just like before
a roller coaster all those rush of emotions arising all at the same time just
swirling all through your body all because you are about to let go for a minute
of control and once it’s over aren’t you glad you did it at the same time as
being glad it’s over? And when it’s over don’t you just want to go again? Well
then go again and again and again as many times and days of your life you want
to live. That’s life have fun with it do what you want to do so you don’t need
anything and say what you want to say so you don’t need to say anything to
anyone and if you are plan on telling someone to go “F” themselves or something
like that then say just that but find a way of saying it without saying it just
don’t hurt yourself or others in the process. Don’t hurt yourself or anyone
else and that is the only rule to living a balanced, happy, fun, exciting full
filled life.  Don’t take things said
personal if you feel something said applies to you first decide if you like
what was said first and if you do keep it up if not then change part about you don’t
fight with the person speaking in general the fight isn’t with them it’s with
you and what you won’t let go of. Don’t regret anything you do regret all the
things in life you don’t do and if you’re not doing it and you don’t have it then
you really didn’t want it.  A moment
without any feeling isn’t really a moment without the feeling behind the moment
whether it be a good or bad feeling without feeling it’s forgotten. Make life every
day a moment that counts before your counting how many moments you think you
have left. Always follow your heart and even if it may be in a few pieces find
them and put them back where they belong and if you have to many pieces then
with each piece you find write it down so you can later go back and piece yourself
back together so you can reunite with the whole person inside that has been
lost waiting to be found and just like on any journey you run into bumps and
you will overcome them all because you want to enjoy the ride of life because
we all know that once we are off we are no longer alive so take a deep breathe
throw your hands up and enjoy the ride even if you pee your pants when the
moments over that will just be another story to tell so stop telling the same
story be creative with life because every part of living is an art in itself
you just have to find the beauty in every part of it good and bad just don’t get
off. Have fun, share; participate in life and the lives of others. If you can’t
beat them join them or get out of the way before those living their dream knock
you down and if they do get back up dust yourself off and speed right past them
even offering a hand on your way passing by and jump on each moment before it
passes you by. So say and do whatever you want just don’t hurt yourself or
others in the process. Never forget or regret, be kind, be gentle, Love hard
with every fiber of your being so you can be living the life of your dreams. We
are human beings just trying to feel good and worry less and the trick is doing
anything and everything you want without hurting anyone else and you can ….It’s
called Be yourself stay true to who you really are inside be who you are be
100% authentic not synthetic because we all are truly amazing beings so be who
you are be one of kind because that’s what we all are and if you don’t believe
that or know that then you are lying to yourself or someone else or you haven’t
forgiven someone else lying to you and no matter which way it goes the only one
holding you back is you so let go and live the life you want to live……

 The word ending doesn’t mean over it just means that movie that chapter is over and the next one is yours to own yours to make yours to create life is your masterpiece
and you are you are the one with the paint, the brushes and the blank canvas
and you can paint any picture you choose but just remember the picture you paint
others are going to see so you can either put it up and showcase how beautiful
of an artist you are or you can hide it away and be mad no one knows what a
great artist you are and if that’s the case who’s fault is that its only fault
to the person that buried the painting .

 I don’t understand the difficulty in life and love it seems to me to be a very simple solution " if you keep doing what your doing you will keep getting what your getting " if you’re saying you want to be happy Why cant you figure out the things that will or won’t make you happy, then go after them. I am no expert, nor do I ever claim
to be, but life can be very simple as long as you don’t go and complicate
things with adding to much "simplicity is the medium between too much and too little"  We all have our good and bad days and great days, but to
all of the single and to all those in dead end relationships, there is
hope for you.

Dating isn’t complicated and there  
isn’t a rule book. Like where did this rule come from  wait three
days before you call a girl or guy? OK really because, in three days I will have
three dates so you snooze you lose.  If you like a somone call 
them Let them know, because what you can’t do, someone else  can and
will. Well for the single dating should be fun because "if its not fun your not doing it right"  Dating is an interview We are the owners of our own multi billion dollar company, and we don’t just hire
anyone. The first thing is, write the job posting write what you want what you dont want what you need and dont need then go to a job fair ,
Which means get out, get dressed, look good, be confident, and smile and
don’t be afraid to approach potential employees. Make sure on your job posting
you are specific about credentials , the  qualifications, and 
previous employers. This company does extensive backround checks.
Every person (employee) is different and needs to be handled
differently. So first things first. When you meet
someone and they seem to act and say they are interested, then see if their words match their resume...
. If you’re interested then do what an interested employer
would do. if you are the canidate That means follow up the next business day to
insure you weren’t passed over and to let the possible employer know that if the position is
still available, you’re still interested. Most likely if we feel
that you have made a good impression, you will be called back for an
interview. I say we call back because we run the company.
So our rules, our terms our policys and procedures , Now the interview has arrived dont be nervous be yourself relax and a" great product speaks for itself" So act like you want  the position and say why you deserve the position .. Okay so
anyway, the interview process is tricky because you want to ask all the right
questions that will be most effective. Like the question that will
show their true colors. Meaning, don’t be fake when you talk, get
down to the nitty gritty. Don’t speak of only the positive traits  
In fact, don’t mention the positives  at all. Speak of only the
downsides so the employee and canidate can decide if the company or canidate is a match Like for example. You don’t want
to go saying you like long walks on the beach if its been over 6 months that you have actually walked on a beach . You want to says things like,
“ I can be moody. I have lazy days, I hate laundry”, and so
on. This way either party can recgonize  strengths and weaknesses of both parties to see if either party  will
be strong enough to handle the low points. Don’t forget,
this isnt just the company interviewing the canidate the canidate can interview the interviewer as well ... . So you really  need to
answer  their questions and ask the same ones back and ask questions the questioning part of the interview is very important it can give alot away about the person .. Okay, so anyway interview
over. Well a follow up call should be key.
That shows interest and dermination. And after the interview if either party feels that this could be a successful “add on” and add on is key thats a positive  
because when you meet someone and get involved with someone, you are adding, not subtracting never try to add zero because it ends up you are not anything at all  If you begin to subtract, then that’s a signal to move
on you are fired !!! I say make sure your whole because I really feel when hear people say, you complete me And thinking about that I think who the heck wants an incomplete person or anything thats incomplete for that matter ? Do you want an incompletely built car? NO, you don’t. Do you want an incomplete BMW, and then complete it with Ford parts or parts it doesnt need ? In fact do you want anything incomplete ?? Hello, no you want a completely built BMW with a completely well built other model car thats the point of a two car garage one for you one for your partner and the car thing not so literally do i mean that but u get the drift ...lol  So my point is you need to be whole,
feel whole, You don’t need any other persons to make you feel 
complete because then how would you ever hold hands with somone you wouldnt unless you are holding them with yourself and thats no fun  So don’t go looking for someone to complete you...
Look for a second vehicle, an add on to your life. Okay, so
now you think this person has potential to the company. You give
the call back and let them know you are impressed and interested but will also
be interviewing other candidates until you are sure you want this person for the job now no i don not believe dating should be a job it should be easy and simple but if you are the type to treat it that way then really treat it that way because im sure we all know a few companies that can have the better business burue called on them lol  So mean while, time passes and
you feel you’re ready to start the hiring process. Now it’s time to
talk salary, which means your worth. You let them know this
company has standards and you don’t settle for anything less. Which
will kind of be like your policy and procedures handbood. Then with
that they become hired and now the 90 day probationary period begins.
So don’t get comfortable anyone is  replaceable and can be
replaced at anytime so if you dont want to be replaced then do something or bring something to the table that is irraplacable and different .. and always give a fair chance if you were in the other position you would want somone to give you a chance too so always remeber that .. 
And yes, there are warnings and right-ups, but it depends on the
situation, but for 90 days you are on probation. It really is no way to be but if your gonna be this way ride the wave dont fight the current because thats when you end up exhausted from going nowhwere ...
 
We all have seen what can happen when we just let anyone
in. So the interview process is for our own good.or you can give nothing so there is nothing to take but really who wants that not me i know i have alot to offer i know my self worth and value and all i ever wanted to share it with somone who feels the same way about me and them selves, It’s called
protection if its available then use it or be prepared  it’s our insurance, our coverage. But see, now you can
sit back and relax during this 90 day period. You go back to your
company(life, yourself) and see how they maximize the copanies profits and be a good teacher lead by example ..
See how they handle team work, and order, organization, all those things
and if not you now have choices and you need to decide what you will or will not
tolerate. And don’t back down if you say you will not tolerate a
liar or cheat on your team then don’t. Aboslutely do not go against
your judge which is your heart and you are only the jury. If you truly can understand why it was done
then it is possible for you to give another chance you should because forgiveness is keey to seeing the clearer image always forgive always let go because think about it if somone does you wrong and you hold onto it what are you really holding onto ?? yes you are holding ont the wrong and thats wrong let it go so you can be free and love is free so dont put a price on it because no one will pay for whats free . All I’m really
saying is the interview process is a great tool to becoming whole, because in
order to be whole, you need standards and boundries to always feeling good or just let it all go simple as that ..... You need to know your
companies wants, needs, dreams and future goals or  You can’t be in search for 
for someone to come fix a problem they didn’t create. So choose to be happy always !!!

 One conversation i had or should I say debate with most is and it came up today 
when I was talking to my husband about a friend and her dating.  I just said to him what I told her.  “You are what and who you act like meaning behavior, so watch your
actions and only let your actions match your words.” He brought up that
three day rule and I laughed and said, “no such thing”. This is my point in
three days there will be someone else who didn’t want to wait three days because in three days anyone can have three more dates .. There is no such thing as dating rules.  If you like someone, you call.  If you don’t then you don’t and that’s
usually whatdating is or am i under the impression its lets see who can be somone else ... we think of somone based on their actions and words in combination i never make a choice based off of one over the other because if you open the door for somone at the same time calling them a name then they cancle each other out so u typically just did nothing and if your saying you love somone while cheating on them then again they cancle each other out making nothing happen no spark so it has to be a combanation of both and if maybe most stopped trying so hard to impress others and just be ourselves then maybe we could find the right one so for me i believe  by actions matching your words not speaking louder .  Maybe
if you meet someone when you’re out that you may wanna get to know and when you wanna get to know somone you ask questions but maybe just make a call the next day or that night
depending on the time and say something like , “hey, it was really nice to meet
you and I would like to talk more” you can either say one of two things.  “ It was really nice to meet you and if you
want to get together sometime, give me a call” or “It was really nice to meet you.  Would you like to get together
sometime?”  this way if you’re a little
timid or shy , you make them or at least try to make them feel comfortable by inviting them in on there terms or you
just ask to avoid future questioning of the ridiculous imaginary 3 day rule.  It’s all about time and what your intentions are when you meet somone so maybe it would be a very good idea to get all that out in the begining, so then this way its all out of the way and noone has time being wasted. 
There are  all these  rules put on life,Love, dating, and relationships that all they do is create  fear in ourselves.  That’s why we have so many
failed relationships.  We are always
following those rules that really shouldnt even play a part when meeting somone.  We can all can act so fake and that is no way to meet anyone true because you urself isnt being true .    Imagine if we didn’t have all these rules.  It would be you meet a female  you think seems intresting to get to know or if your a female dont be afraid to
approach guys you may seem  interested in you have no idea what it is until you find out and no one knows what somone else  is
thinking or what they are looking for if they are even looking so the only way to know is to ask so just ask .  It’s
either yes or no.  If yes, you go from
there. If no, move on. " No worrying about
the what ifs, it is what it is and if it isnt then it wasnt suppossed to be" ....." you are a combanation of your actions and words one does not triumph over the other because the only way to give the things you say meaning is to act on behave of what it is you are saying and do what it is you are saying " if you act like you are out to meet somone to spend a life with you will attract people that want that as well and then when you finally can not keep up with the false behavior then dont act suprised if you have a person on your hands that wants answers .... if you act, on what you say then you will always be able to back yourself up so If you like someone, act like a person that likes someone.  If you don’t know how
that is then just ask yourself if you like that person and same goes with love .. Okay, granted
not in one night for some but if you’re honest from jump start then everyone shouldn’t
end up hurt because it didn’t get that far to begin with.  I can go on forever about this topic because
it’s true if you work with facts then there is no argument there is no hard feelings the facts are the facts no one argues that 2+2 doesnt = 4........

                                                    Letting Love In”

To let something in you must know what your letting in and what’s the best way to
get to know something it’s to study it to observe it in its own habitat and where
is its own habitat ... its inside you its inside me inside all of us but
everyone is so afraid to let love in because they fear the pain it will cause
but the worst part is they don’t even realize that not letting it in cause the
most pain....so getting to know love so u can win it over let it in same thing
..now when love comes knocking on your door we are afraid of what we believe it
will cause so we shut it out all together and hmmmm that’s not a very good
choice it’s a choice yes but not the best possible choice and who am I don’t
know that’s what the whole point of this is to figure out who I am ...solve is
knocking at your door what we do you do your afraid scared you know it can
cause hurt and pain and no one wants that so we think turning it away or not
answering solves the problem, no the problem is still there or just multiplying
into a bigger problem because now the one willing to love is now afraid to
knock on your door because of fear of rejection and there is a double edge
sword right there everyone gets hurt no one gets love so they key is to let it
in but know how to survive it and the best way to survive is know and I have
always believed in the best way to overcome your enemy or fear is to know your
enemy and how do you know well u study it u observe just like I had mentioned
earlier and what’s the best way to observe 24/7 it's to be your own study love
yourself get to know its ups and downs its wants its likes its dislikes and
play around not with others but your own heart find out what makes it beat what
keeps it beating what makes it grow larger and feed it nourish it don’t ignore
it because then u wake up one day and realize no matter how hard u tried to
suppress it or not answer the knock it couldn’t wait so it kicked its way in
and how because now you are facing everything you tried to avoid in the first
place to avoid all that just open the door but be very kind and gentle and yes
we are the protector we are here to survive so to let something in you have to
know it and if you don’t know it, it’s because you are not aware of what it is
so we are unable to recognize and if you are unaware and unable to recognize it
it’s because we either don’t have it inside ..not having love isn’t anyone’s
fault but the one that won’t let it in with understanding it could possibly
hurt and excepting that and understanding that u can just enjoy it while you
have it but if you have it inside you then you have it forever but the key isn’t
to fear it the key is to survive it and the only way to survive love is to know
it and understand it and the only way to know it and understand it is to have
it and do it and with that understanding you are able to have it and enjoy it
the whole time you do have it  .....

the key is make sure you are getting the best of both worlds and for everyone that
could be and can be different and it’s not hard if u know what you’re jumping
into and the knowing that you have someone there to break the fall and it
doesn’t seem like they are breaking anything because they are not what they
really are doing is catching love so no matter what whether you are the jumper
or the catcher you both win because its mutual understanding, almost like if u
only had someone to hold your hand while u jump and that’s me I hold yours you
hold mine and we jump together you know holding hands as much as some act as if
it’s a bad thing it’s not it’s an equal relationship a partnership me holding
yours and you holding mine and the best part when we touch ground we both
either hug each other or someone else and again win win ....... 

"Nevergive up, never give in”

                                    True or False ?

 This is a quote that someone had mentioned to
me before and something inside me wasn’t really all there with that one why
because here it goes ... never give up well what are you giving up? is it a
cheating husband , a jealous boyfriend , a drug habit , an addiction of any
kind well in that case the first thing you would want to do is give that up
because staying in any of those situations and there are many other situations
that can fit into that place but to not give any of that up is giving yourself
up and why would after fighting for yourself would u want to go and just hand
that over so give up yes sometimes depends on what your giving up so by all
means give up give up give up but on the other hand if it’s the fight for love
,then no if its freedom no if its anything that is inside you then never give
up if you are a singer never stop singing if you are a painter never give that
up even dancing, if you are a lover a helper whatever is inside you that makes
you smile everyday then NO never give up , now as far as giving in again
depends on what you are giving into or you are giving in a muddy waters no if
you are giving into feeling bad no if you are giving into someone that would
compensate and give into you then no but again on the other hand if you are
giving into something that makes you feel good now with the way society is that
statement can bit me in the ass but it’s not because I don’t mean go out and do
something bad for inkstand gratification to feeling good like drugs because
they are only momentarily fixes not permanent well hmmm they can be but only if
you allow that and you aren’t aware of the outcome so know before doing so if
the outcome no matter which u way u turn isn’t going to be a good one or one
that makes you feel good then eliminate that all together don’t bother just
like trying to start a fire under water it’s never going to happen naturally so
don’t force it or it combusts and that’s messy unless what is combusting out so
again depends what you are giving into and if its love give in if it makes you
feel good not just for the moment but for a lifetime then give in because even
if the script flips and isn’t good then give it up before it takes you away so
depending what it is you have to ask the right questions to get the right
answers ...

"when
you back yourself in a corner it’s a lose lose situation but when I get backed
into a corner I make sure it’s a win win situation" where in this case no
way is the wrong way and isn’t that the way we all want to feel as if no way is
wrong way now people debate right and wrong and what is wrong for you might not
be for me and vice versa so with understanding now you can just try to figure
out what the solution is to having the best of both worlds yours and mine
because they’re really isn’t two worlds is there ..maybe I don’t know that
answer yet but for now finding the best of both worlds is understanding
differences and that personal choice and personal freedom is all we really want
at the end of the day I mean I know that’s what I want but in a room of 100
people how do accommodate everyone’s personal choice the answers is you don’t
they do no need to worry just allow everyone the freedom for personal choice
and if it is something that hmmm u don’t agree with ok but don’t agree with
because u just don’t or is it something that can harm you and that’s how u make
the choice personal choice should be excepted but if its harmful to you or your
family or put u in harm’s way then there is no argument there because again
that’s your personal choice and we all have that right now I know that and you
might know that but not a lot of people do and that pisses people off because
really they are mad that they never had that right so they then want to take it
away from you but really then maybe those stuck in that world can practice
allowing others the freedom to make their own choices and instead of punishing
them maybe they should go to their room and take a time out and at the end of
the day who will be the one that had to have a time out not the one that
understand personal choice so what’s that tell you stop trying to control other
people and guess what stop allowing others to control us which is a good fight
to fight and really no fight is good but in a way fighting for your right to be
here there or anywhere really has no excuse if you catch my drift lol sorry
about that I do have to apologize because I know that maybe that sounded a
little fresh or mean but do you know how hard it is when all u want to do is enjoy
the day the day that you weren’t even sure was given to you until you woke up
and opened your eyes I guess almost like touching ground when you sky dive it’s
those feelings that keep us going everyday .....and again sometimes I wonder
off with no conclusion but no need to worry I’m just out there getting it and
if you get it first please share openness is the one thing I appreciate and
respect it’s a form of corrective criticize if you will and when you are in
front of someone or calling someone or whatever situation it is if you are
putting your opinion out there you have to understand that other people have a
right to give there’s as well and it doesn’t have to be a match to see who can
get who to cross over into your world , my world or their world it doesn’t
matter because if you are always where you want to be then you can’t go wrong
....

"when
you back yourself in a corner it’s a lose lose situation but when I get backed
into a corner I make sure it’s a win win situation" where in this case no
way is the wrong way and isn’t that the way we all want to feel as if no way is
wrong way now people debate right and wrong and what is wrong for you might not
be for me and vice versa so with understanding now you can just try to figure
out what the solution is to having the best of both worlds yours and mine
because they’re really isn’t two worlds is there ..maybe I don’t know that
answer yet but for now finding the best of both worlds is understanding
differences and that personal choice and personal freedom is all we really want
at the end of the day I mean I know that’s what I want but in a room of 100
people how do accommodate everyone’s personal choice the answers is you don’t
they do no need to worry just allow everyone the freedom for personal choice
and if it is something that hmmm u don’t agree with ok but don’t agree with
because u just don’t or is it something that can harm you and that’s how u make
the choice personal choice should be excepted but if its harmful to you or your
family or put u in harm’s way then there is no argument there because again
that’s your personal choice and we all have that right now I know that and you
might know that but not a lot of people do and that pisses people off because
really they are mad that they never had that right so they then want to take it
away from you but really then maybe those stuck in that world can practice
allowing others the freedom to make their own choices and instead of punishing
them maybe they should go to their room and take a time out and at the end of
the day who will be the one that had to have a time out not the one that
understand personal choice so what’s that tell you stop trying to control other
people and guess what stop allowing others to control us which is a good fight
to fight and really no fight is good but in a way fighting for your right to be
here there or anywhere really has no excuse if you catch my drift lol sorry
about that I do have to apologize because I know that maybe that sounded a
little fresh or mean but do you know how hard it is when all u want to do is enjoy
the day the day that you weren’t even sure was given to you until you woke up
and opened your eyes I guess almost like touching ground when you sky dive it’s
those feelings that keep us going everyday .....and again sometimes I wonder
off with no conclusion but no need to worry I’m just out there getting it and
if you get it first please share openness is the one thing I appreciate and
respect it’s a form of corrective criticize if you will and when you are in
front of someone or calling someone or whatever situation it is if you are
putting your opinion out there you have to understand that other people have a
right to give there’s as well and it doesn’t have to be a match to see who can
get who to cross over into your world , my world or their world it doesn’t
matter because if you are always where you want to be then you can’t go wrong
....

Uphill
battles are the best because the outcome is the sky .the stars the moon it
doesn’t matter just reach up and grab but just look up and not down never look
down looking down brings you closer to the edge and the closer to the edge you
get the shakier things get and without any knowing you’re falling so just be
aware and don’t put yourself in situations where you need to worry and if you
the type of person that needs to find out things for yourself then by all means
go ahead and do it but preparation is key and even to u want to see it for
yourself you can still learn from others mistakes and make sure you tie a life
line so if you start to slip you are safe and that’s pretty much a survival
technique and ultimately that’s what we all want to do is to survive and not in
just that case and theory but I think and feel I made it this far because I
left myself clues all along the way just like Hansel and Gretel did with
leaving behind the bread crumbs but except these are scars and apparently I’m
all full up no more vacancy on these insides..........we all tend to challenge
a lot of theories and that’s great but please don’t exhaust yourself like I
have because when I say I’m exhausted I mean that in the best possible way
because I over exhausted myself at trying to fix  everyone in the world and really because
honestly maybe that was the only way I had friends because otherwise they
weren’t around is was like because I was a good listener I paid the price by
having 100 friends that weren’t good listeners so it was like I became stronger
because you are able to carry all that on your own is strength and I never gave
myself enough credit but what I should have done was instead of waiting for
people to ask for help I should have volunteered my help because I love making
people smile for no reason other than to just know you can make someone smile
now as a kid is sad because maybe if I saw nothing but fake smiles I would
never know what goes into a smile because I wouldn’t notice almost like ten
blondes in a row and one odd colored hair when u look quickly around you will
notice the difference its magnified because once contact hits you are drawn in
and you can use this with anything in life a guy a feeling just its the difference
we notice so even though I am most shy person ever inside I don’t want to be
seen like as far as music goes I absolutely love music w such a deep passion
and I don’t sing or I do not play any instrument I don’t want to be any type of
front man never have I am all about lyrics it’s the song lyrics the words that
hit me some songs I hear it was almost if I wrote those lyrics it’s almost like
shit they were there to and that’s a great feeling and that why music soothes
the soul because just to know someone else was there or there now is what
connects us to music and yes the singers are amazing but what really makes them
amazing is when you can feel there heart and see their heart and whatever is it
whether it be good love bad love ,breaking up, falling in love , hurt pain just
when u can feel what they feel for a minute is amazing and I thank performers
for doing that because I’m sure whoever wrote those lyrics really  felt like that at that time so well done and
that my love for lyrics so you see I’m not a performer or a stage person now I
know that may sound like I’m not fun but I never did karaoke not because I
wasn’t fun or whatever but because I just didn’t want to be center of attention
I didn’t want all eyes on me so I build a shell but it did the exact opposite
so because I wanted to not be center of attention I pulled back and it brought
more attention to myself and that wasn’t putting on a mask it was being me I
just didn’t like attention so I didn’t go after it but at the same time I
didn’t want to be completely invisible so because I knew how to hide I knew how
to stand out as well but it still wasn’t to be actually physically seen but
felt  and only because as a child
throwing myself into every fight to stop two people from killing each other and
taking three kids with them I had to stand out without getting punched in the
process I had to fight in a but there less hurtful way to everyone not sure if
that makes sense now but the problem solver in me won’t drop it until I do lol
so what is a mean is I like the ingredients in something instead of just eating
something they gave a name I want to how it got its name by what goes into that
so say you like a Ferrari why do you like it because it looks good its sleek
design its small but yet very powerful but there is so much more to what goes
into a Ferrari it’s the engine or how fast it goes in how many seconds it’s the
way the sits fit to mostly anybody it’s that whether you like cars or not
everyone still likes a Ferrari  now if
you know someone that doesn’t then they can appreciate beauty and what it takes
to be scene that way because beauty is on the inside and what’s on the inside
is visible on the outside so if you’re going to have attention on you have
attention on you in a good way and if you’re going to stand out stand up for
something don’t get action drawn to you in a negative way and yes we are all
very different and by understanding all the differences out there you cannot
judge because there is beauty in everything and some see it and some don’t and
the ones that don’t should because you wouldn’t have to feel alone or guilty or
whatever feelings come with that you can just see beauty everywhere with
understand yourself and others and break the cycle of negative attention or
energy what you call that is also you’re choice but when I make a phone call
and the customer service rep is a very nasty person am I going to let her screw
up my shit for the whole day?  No what we
should is understand that she carries blame for someone who put her in that
mood so because she didn’t ask for it she is going to go and give it to someone
that didn’t ask for it and then the cycle begins and now we have a bunch of
cruel people running around well no not me I’m going to stop that and how
because when I call and she is just dumping away I’m going to take what I can
from it and make sure I never act that way or make someone feel like shit for
calling you to help and it’s not free your getting paid to do so and yet your
no help and your cruel no thanks I’m just going to keep calm and not go to your
level so then when I get off the phone with you I’m now being nasty to someone
else that didn’t ask for it so no I’m going to understand that the customer
service agent is not in a good place and she is dealing with allot of sadness
or she \  is just rude and even that is
because somewhere along the line they allowed someone to do that to them but
here’s the kicker it’s not your fault and it’s not my fault I need customer
service and it’s not my fault someone did something to you or that you are
felling mad because you didn’t do or don’t have the courage well for whatever
reason this was instilled and needs to filter out but not my problem so now
after that instead of taking out your frustration on someone else do something nice
so for every bad thing that’s not your fault do something that is your fault
but don’t get seen in a negative way be seen in a good way help someone cross
the street or maybe not some may beat your ass and that’s sad no trust and
trust is supposed to be a good feeling but not now about trust because I have
no clue I trust everyone and at the same time trust no one see you have to know
both aspects it’s just called being aware but if you mistrust someone then
where is the mistrust in you because we are attracted to people for either the
qualities we believe we lack for compensation or we chose someone based on
familiarity comfort but here’s how this goes you chose someone because they
lack and you think they will push you to do more of those qualities well here’s
the thing you’re giving the other person permission to pushed and what happens
when we feel pushed around or bullied we go into defensive mode or attack made
survival mode u chose either one or all whatever its all the same way just
comes out differently so now u give someone permission to push you even though
you hate being pushed around so the heck with that scenario and now you are
attracted to people with similarities now here’s the thing w that when you do
that you better be right inside because everything you hate in yourself you’re
going to hate I you’re partner so then that’s when the bullying begins and it’s
not right but it can cause someone to hurt but then you’re thinking well if you
don’t chose either then what’s left or next there is nothing else but look past
that there is more why don’t you just figure out who you are and become whole
first and yes with being who I am I had nothing but more than enough alone time
with myself try up until this very moment and the next but I’m washing all this
away so what’s left is a person and by doing work on yourself allows you to get
to know yourself and who you are so u can know who you deserve and learning to
love yourself for no matter what reason good and bad because you are all u got
at the end of the day so don’t be stuck left w a miserable person but I’m not
saying anyone is right or wrong or any of that I’m just saying love yourself
because everything anyone has ever thought was faults there want because of
faults why people keep being nasty just like the rep so the best way to find
love is find it within yourself because with loving yourself you got to know
yourself and you know you’re not the person to ever want to do that whatever
that may be just know it doesn’t feel good to you so why would you want to make
someone else not feel good I know I surely don’t and I don’t .and I know you
don’t because if you did you wouldn’t be here just like me trying to find where
we lost ourselves I mean becoming whole is the key to happiness not putting your
happiness on the line for someone else to come in and snatch it and no one
wants that because we all want to be happy so why do some people do things they
know they don’t want because that’s all you hear them  say but who is really the person they r trying
to convince surely not me surely not you maybe or you’re the one doing the
convincing for yourself and either way it’s no good to feel either way because
if you love you can say it without actually saying it and if u care u can care
without actually saying you care or saying I trust and knowing you really don’t
it doesn’t matter because its key to say the words with saying them that what
makes people believe and we all want to be believed in and something to believe
in and that’s kept to balance and all these key words are words that help
problem solve now explain this how can one dislike math and not understand math
and someone dislike English and not understand all those terms predicates
subjective all that but yet absolutely love word problems even a word problem
two pages long, and I’ll tell you who me sounds bizarre I know but that’s the
problem solver in me and the love of an equation and the journey you go on to
find the answer it’s the best of both worlds it’s a story about math and I
don’t even know but it works in my head and we r all different but now I want
to compensate for my overworked self so someone else doesn’t have to work but I
won’t make it feel like work because in the end the ultimate answer is love
happiness and all the ingredients that go into them and make life taste
wonderful .