Hi there Lilly, I hope you feel better soon. Mike
I pray that you find the peace you are struggling so hard to find. That the Lord gives his blessings to your family and watches over you and protects you.
I started my day out somewhat like yours, I suffer from major depression, anxiety, and chronic pain. I read everymorning and sometimes and drawn to a certain passage.
Sometimes I find scription for me, sometimes it is meant to pass to someone else and sometimes I feel that I should share his word if it will help someone else.
So today I felt drawn towards
"I lift up my eyes to the hills----where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord the Maker of Heaven and Earth."
There is more to this psalm and if you feel so drawn, look it up and read I think it will help.
Hope I have been some help to you even if it was just kind words. I wish you peace in your journey. God Bless.