Lamb, I am so sorry, but with birthdays, we have 4 in the family in June, and doctor strifes, and relitives in my hair, (if you know what I mean) I have been sort of out of it and up to my neck in other things. But I found my confession, and it hereby follows;
I met the Lord when I was 47, and at about 8 years ago I more or less gave up on the world. By that I mean that I reached a point in my life I ask myself, “What’s it all for?” I was driving and thought I may finely get some where. But my wife came down with cancer, and that helped finished me in the trucking business. After the doctor had given a clean bill to her health, I thought to go back to work, only to find that I couldn’t. My hearing had been damaged during my army years, and finally it has gotten bad enough that I was finished as a driver.
In my lifetime I have acquired a lot of knowledge through Vo-Techs, and other schools, and am a highly qualified driver. I was a soldier for ten years of my life, and before and after the military I was a heavy equipment operator, auto mechanic, machinist, structural engineer, building maintainceman, and Truck driver until my wife’s cancer. Never let anyone tell you that all you need is knowledge to get ahead in the world. If you truly believe in God then the world will hate you. I am not talking about people. John wrote, “Greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.”(1 John 4:4) Satan is in the world, and if you hate evil, the world will hate you. Therefore, while others prosper, you will have tribulation and difficulties in the world. If it is not God’s will for you to prosper in the world, you can forget it. Understand, God has chosen you out of the world. Now, answer this question, do you believe that God is the only one who knows that he has set you apart from the world? Satan is aware that you are not his, and he will try to destroy you. Look at what John wrote, “Greater is He (Jesus) that is in you, than he (Satan) that is in the world.” It is like a coin, on one side of it God is telling you, “If you can’t make it down there son, you will have no problems up here.” And the flip side of that is, “If you can make it in this world.....What was it that is said in the word of God? “They have their reward.” (Matt. 6:2,5,16) Is that not what it says? However, here is the good news I have for you. If you can’t make it here, I know a place where you can. Just be patient and wait on the Lord, He has already made plans to come for you.
This is also the thing which has produced the poetry which is the work of my hands. Though many would classify me as poor, I can say that I am content for the first time in my life. And if I stay the course, I am rich beyond your wildest dreams. RICH, because I don’t have to worry anymore. RICH, because I don’t have to fear a world which is about to blow up in our faces. RICH, because my God is my savior, my provider, and my redeemer. RICH, because I have a Father’s love! RICH, because I have a King, whom is called King of kings and Lord of lords. I could go on and on, but how do you define eternity?
As for my hearing, I always tell people that God made me deaf that I might hear. About seven years ago God told me to write down all I had learned from him. That led to a book. Of course I could not afford to publish it myself. However, one thing I had learned in my research and studies of the word of God was that God will provide the way when he is ready, and eventually it was published. The publishing company sent me a copy of it and I gave it to a preacher, and where it has gone after that, I have no idea. But it was never written to be a profit to me. I never promoted it. The company sold a few volumes, and I still have the checks in my desk, they will never be cashed. “Freely give that which you freely receive.”
Paul wrote something, which is interesting and should be considered by all that say they are teachers of God, 1st Corn. 4:9; “For I think that God hath set forth us the apostles last, as it were appointed to death: for we are made a spectacle unto the world, and to angels, and to men.” Meditate on what Paul is saying here. He goes on to say in 1st Cor. 4:11; “Even unto this present hour we both hunger, and thrust, and are naked, and are buffeted, and have no certain dwelling-place.”
I do have a place to live, but I rent, and have never felt that I should buy a place, but all the above, but that one point, describes me. God takes care of His own.