I did some guided mediations yesterday.  Apparently I am holding in some anger.  In the mediation I was at one point suppose to be on a path in a wooded area.  I for some reason had a urge to climb tree and/or break them.   I know I have been dealing with frustrating things and most of the time when I feel that frustration I feel sleepy sometimes so sleepy that I have no choice but to go to sleep.   It doesn't really surprise me that I have some anger issues. I can think of many things that tick me off at the moment but i just don't know how to express my anger in a healthly way.   My husband keeps telling me I should paint.  I just haven't felt like painting because sometimes when things don't come out the way I want them to I get angry.   I have wanted to write lately but when I sit down to write I have nothing to really write.   Sure I could write about this again but I feel I have talked about and written about it so much already t that I am not getting any where.  I am going to the gym for the first time in years.   Maybe starting excerise will help somehow.