I have been having a dream. I had a few times even before I started reading the bible. Usually the last couple of time the dream doesn't have to end but I remember how it ends. It starts off at the Opening of the Olympics camera goes to young chinese girl playing drums for the ceremony then the camera pan to the right toward the city and there are planes dropping bombs. Then it skips to a new cast which states something about the year after the bombing of someplace or other a woman dropps dead of a stroke. She is important but I don't know her. Then my dream turns to California we see Will Smith and his family at McDonald's his daughter is playing with a baby alien. Then there is a earthquake people are running and scream and fire is coming from the sky. Then the dream starts to become a jumble of things that I can't quite remember them all but pieces I remember. Then I am taken from my husband to a place in the sky he stays on earth and dies there are others there some are my family but not all. Then after a period in time I am sent back to earth with wings. People are repreparing the earth for the return of people. There is a light that ask us to follow. There is more detail to what I've dreamt about. I don't know if it means anything but I just know it is a scary dream.
Sorry I have not been on in a while there times where I just don't feel as connected to my spiritual half or would that be whole. I believe everything can be spiritual if we let it. Sometimes I am stubborn and don't wanna let it be any part of me. It not right or wrong to do this it just is the way I am sometimes. In the spiritual world there is no right or wrong there just is one moment and it is just that a moment nothing else. I is so hard explain yet can be so simple to see. I don't where this planet is heading in the years to come but something... there is this feeling that something good is coming. This makes me happy and a little scared because something so good can mean something so bad will come later. But I guess what I have learned is you deal with that when it comes. Not before or after. You deal with it when it happens.
There are so many thoughts in me about what's happening in the world today. I don't know where to start or how to share it. I wish there was a way I knew in which to get my feelings of hope to others in a larger sense but for now I have to settle with posting a blog here. I feel in my heart that I am meant for big things and to share these things. I feel like I am waving at everyone saying" Hey look over here at me. I have a message!" And I feel people are passing me by. And other times I have the message but don't know when to express it.
I just wish those who read this well and to those who don't the same.
Hope is the key, Love is the secret.
Since i was little my mother use to say things to me like "Listen to the trees what do they say?" I loved the trees we had in our yard. I use to go up and hug them and talk to the leaves. It had been a long time since I had done that until recently.
I read an article in a magazine called "Light of Consciousness" There are some nature mediations in a article and I would like to share one.
"In Interview with Nature, you look for a special rock, plant, or animal that has an interesting story to tell. You ask it question like, "Wha t events have you seen in your life? What is it like to live here? Is there something you would like to tell me?" People sometimes feel a little awkward at first talking to something as if it were alive. But very quickly they come to appreciate the fact their rock or tree has a precious life of its own."
I have to say I had a nice conversation with a pair of tree branches. It is funny how each one had it's own personality. The smaller of the bunch was fearful of being broken into pieces and the bigger on was very confident of being on it's own.
I did some guided mediations yesterday. Apparently I am holding in some anger. In the mediation I was at one point suppose to be on a path in a wooded area. I for some reason had a urge to climb tree and/or break them. I know I have been dealing with frustrating things and most of the time when I feel that frustration I feel sleepy sometimes so sleepy that I have no choice but to go to sleep. It doesn't really surprise me that I have some anger issues. I can think of many things that tick me off at the moment but i just don't know how to express my anger in a healthly way. My husband keeps telling me I should paint. I just haven't felt like painting because sometimes when things don't come out the way I want them to I get angry. I have wanted to write lately but when I sit down to write I have nothing to really write. Sure I could write about this again but I feel I have talked about and written about it so much already t that I am not getting any where. I am going to the gym for the first time in years. Maybe starting excerise will help somehow.
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