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    the loss of my mother

    Friday, October 30, 2009, 6:22 PM [General]

    on june 13th, 2009 my mother died of lung cancer....for all you smokers please stop smoking... she died less than 5 months of the doctors news.  i have to say its been 4 months and learing how to cope with her death has been very trying for me.. i loved her dearly and didnt expect for her to go so soon.  i wish i could talk to her and ask her questions but i cant....my loneliness comes from the void i feel when i think of her and the fact i cant talk to her or ever see her agin...i dont want to be sad or angry about my mom. i know shes in a better place but i cant let go...its so hard to do...i will start a grief group this coming week to help me deal with all my feelings....i want to be happy and i want to recieve GODS love he has for me....i just get scared at times....really scared...panic attack scared....so understand its not that i want to feel bad but i have so much on my plate...MOMMY I LOVE YOU.....I MISS YOU SO MUCH....FOREVER IN MY HEART....YOUR DAUGHTER...JACQUELINE

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    My dearest friend jacqueline,
    I really do feel for you in the loss of your mom. i constantly thank the Lord that I still have mine. She is constantly ill, and I try to be there for her as much as I can. Sometimes, we don't know what we have until it is gone. That is why I commented to help yourself, so that you can help you children. Love them and embrace them as much as you can. I do not have any children, for mine were lost by my ex-wife in her 1st trimester. I wanted to adopt, but she shut out my idea and me. Never loose your faith in the Lord, for he will guide you. I did go to the basilica of San Juan, Texas, and lit a candle for you. At the same time, I said a prayer pleading the sweet Virgen Mary to Pray for you and your family. God Bless you my friend!!! Sometime visit my journals, for you are mentioned there Latinlady. Your sincere friend who continues to pray for you, Eusebio.

    Eve510
    October 31, 2009
    4:08 AM

    HI Jacqueline,

    I am so very sorry for the loss of your mother. I can so relate to you. My mom also died on January 12, 2008 from lung cancer. The doctor that was overseeing her radiation treatments kept telling us that she was doing better, and suddenly she was gone. I was her primary caregiver the last few months of her life. I am the youngest of 6 kids and basically none of my other siblings did a thing, except my sister who really just succeeded in upsetting my mom. We grew so close....even closer than we already were and I just miss her so very much...especially now with the holidays coming. Her birthday falls on Thanksgiving this year. She was truly my best friend and I just want her back. Were you able to start a grief support group in your area? If you would ever like to talk, I would be glad to speak with you. You are welcomed to email me. I am at Paradoks1@aol.com. My name is Rebecca. I'm 36. You take care of yourself, and just know that you are not alone, no matter how much it may feel like that right now. Just do what you can in your life to make your mom proud right now. That's all you can do.
    Love,
    Rebecca

    Paradoks1
    November 16, 2009
    5:22 PM