I joined this community in hopes of finding like minded people. I live in North East Central Alberta, in the bush. It was relatively peaceful here but now the oil industry and greed has taken over, not just the area but the people as well. Despite this I love gardening, camping, wild life, animals, water such as lakes and rivers, fishing, sometimes the snow, spiritualism and good people. I am a creative person. I love to recreate nature in all of its speldor either through painting or wood burning. I have had many angel encounters and on 2 occasions I have had Fairy encounters. I love my cats and all the wild animals who come to visit from time to time. I love spending time around my firepit, it is so calmimg and nurturing at the same time. I do believe...no, I know that heaven exists and I miss it, I miss that feeling of pure, pure intense love. It is quite sobering living around people who are in stark contrast to that. I know we are all here with our own charts that we ourselves wrote so to better ourselves both emotionally and spiritually, but I do ask...was I of my right mind when I wrote mine? I know I am not done learning here on earth. Every now and again, an answer to my 'why?' eventually emerges. At times it is rather immediete and other times it takes years. I beleive in holistic healing and natural remedies and only seek 'modern medical' help for the big serious things like appendectomies. I try to live righteously without being self-righteous, but I have to admit, there are times I really do screw that up...stupid ego! Trying to live this way is not easy, at least not for me. I feel as though I stick out like a sore thumb around here for trying to remain truthful. Truthful to myself and to God. And to be honest there are days I feel like giving up...or more accurately, giving in. It seems that people around me who appear Godless, self-centered, self absorbed and vain, reap the rewards, materially speaking. But I know, deep down I cannot be anyone or anything else, but me and my rewards await in Heaven, I just have to continue being patient I guess.