My momma passed away on January 21st 2012 She had been suffering for several years due to a previous back injury. And just 3 years ago had a quadruple bypass heart surgery. Her name was Minnie Pearl Mead Gossett. She was 66 years old and hailed from Oklahoma. It was Friday January 6th when she went to her scheduled heart doctor’s appointment. She had been retaining more water than the doctor was comfortable with so they decided to keep her for the weekend to remove some of the fluid. My momma was to be released on Monday. At some point Monday morning she was given some sort of test that showed and 8 centimeter aneurism and an aortic dissection. The doctor immediately put her under so the aneurism would not burst. They wanted to do surgery but her blood pressure was out of whack so they planned the surgery for when her blood pressure stabilized. Over the next few days we waited in the ICU waiting room for the surgery to happen. But it would never happen. It was one thing after another that went wrong. Her kidneys started failing then her liver wasn’t right. The docs would get her blood pressure right then something else would go wrong. On January 15th momma CODED. After an hour of chest compressions and for a total of 3 hours of working on her she was brought back. On Monday we were told that the only reason she was alive was because of the life support, momma was brain dead. The lack of oxygen during the amount of time taken to bring her back had left her that way. We were told that we need to make a decision. I never thought I would hear those words concerning my momma. We waited several days and although it looked like she was suffering greatly we were assured that she was aware of nothing. It was very hard to deal with since my little brother who is 40 and my older sister who is 48 left me with all of the decisions including the burial as well as all financial responsibility for her. I was and still feel so alone. I thought I was handling it pretty well. I cried a lot but held down my job and the new issues that arose from momma’s death. It is now April 17th and for the past 5 weeks I have been a wreck. I can’t think right, my memory is almost nonexistent I have no drive to do anything I’ve lost over 20 pounds and I’m a little moody. I understand that I’m depressed I have suffered from that for several years but I have never been like this emotionally. I NEED SOME HELP. Can anyone give me any coping tips? My email address is firstname.lastname@example.org.