I have been practicing my meditation skills and shamanic journeying. In doing so I have found my sacred space in the Otherworld...a dimly lit grove that allows beams of golden sunlight to stream in...a boulder on the eastern edge facing a forrest stream that marks the boundary of the grove. I visit here when I meditate..for a while now I have been alone and never experienced anyone or anything there. However, a few days ago I entered the meditation and was greeted on a path entering the grove by, what I knew by heart not by sight, was the Mother Goddess. She lead me into the Grove which was on a Full Moon. In the Grove there was a bonfire in the center and torches marking the boundaries in a full circle. There were beings dancing and celebrating in Skyclad...I was skyclad...everyone was and it was so peaceful, so natural. The Mother welcomed me home and led me to the Father God...horned and all. Together they sent me on a journey across the water of the stream to get a necessary message about my recent spiritual struggles. Here is my vision:

When in the Otherworld I am a wolf called Running Wolf...as the mental pictures I see are a wolf/me sprinting through the night in ecstasy...anyways, I encountered three animal totems the deer/stag, wolf, and owl. Deer = balance in spirt/physical/emotional, develop sensitivity psychically, and cultivate a gentle heart. The wolf = Gaining freedom, a need for balance, developing individuality while cultivating a sense of belonging in the community. A balance of power and gentleness...have confidence in your selected path. Owl = wisdom, extra sensory abilities, a guide through the dark...death and resurection...a letting go of old ways and emerging into a new life. Encouragement to holdfast.

This was the answer I have been seeking for so long. I have struggled with insecurity, uncertainty, and doubt and this answered my prayers...to find balance through cultivating sensitivity, gentle heart, courage to forge new paths. There will be a guide to help you through this time of hardship. Be kind to yourself. Trust.

In an additional meditation/ journey the Lord of the Forrest spoke tome and encouraged me to "follow the spiral path". I am not sure what that means but my intuition says that it means to continue following the spiritual path I am on, look inward deeply, be authentic and genuine in my search for truth and I will find what I seek.

I feel a very strong connection now to something, someone powerful...like the sun about to crest the horizon in the dawn. I will see what the dawn brings.

Blessings to all.