Fall, my most favorite time of year. Yet this year is different. I have been physically ill since January, it seems like everyday posed another health issue. The Spring was lost spent in the hospital, the Summer gone by trying to physically recover, but becoming more depressed.

Now, I am at a cross road and have taken the first few steps and regret it already. If I were to pick just one health issue that over rides any other in my life it would be physical pain. How could I have ever imagined pain could hurt so bad? My career as a paramedic led me to so many lives touched by some degree of pain. I tried my best to help, the resposibility of the words PARAMEDIC on the patch, upon my right sleeve I took very seriously.

And now, I am the one in pain. It took only moments for the accident to occur, 3 years of surgery, therapy and other care. Now as the 7th year anniversary of the September 23rd auto accident passes, the pain from the 11 surgery's is becoming more fierce daily. As I write this the pain has taken over, so for tonight the keyboard will go silent while I go lay in quite, no peace, but prayer.......