It is hard to talk about who I am because sometimes I do not even know. Suffering from severe depression in the past & current moderate depression if there is such a thing, PTSD and now chronic pain has left me feeling alone, at times hopeless and feelng the loss of my independance. My dreams, now that I have given myself permission to do so, is to continue to seek love & light, a closer relatonship with God, to allow myself to love again and to consider my ability to find happiness in each day I wake. Loneliness plagues me, the search for that butterfly's in my stomach feeling when falling in love continues and finding peace of mind, heart and soul. This is who I am inside, outside I'd rather not talk about at the moment becauyse I am really unhappy with that part myself.